Im new, i need all the support i can get:)

Well my name is Memory, im a mommy of three, my oldest a girl being 8 and two boys 2 1/2 and1 1/2. see ive always been a very skinny person! i was always able to eat all i wanted and never gain a pound! till i had a double pregnancy in one year! My two boys are only 11 months apart and both born in 2010, January and December. wow has it been a hard time trying to loose the weight! ive cut out beef soda sweets and i walk an hour every other day... and i feel like ive been gaining more than im loosing (i guess cause im trying to starve myself)... ive never counted calories and it just never made sense to me to eat 5 meals a day! im trying to loose weight why the heck do i want to eat allll that food all day! but when i did research and had friends that are over weight slimming down (even passing me) i knew i was doin it wrong and i had to try it! so this is all new to me!! and since im pretty determined, i know i can do it! my goal is to loose 45 lbs! wish me luck!