What 365 Days of MFP has done for me?

So today is my 365th day on MFP of non stop logging. A secret, I set my internet browser homepage to MFP lol.

Anyways, I did start here at my heaviest weight but when I found out I was pregnant I quit logging, lost my access didn't feel like going through the steps so made a new account.

Height: 5'3
Start weight: 250 lbs

This is the start of MFP very first account!

New account and 1 year logging start weight: 205.5lbs I lost 70 lbs when I was pregnant due to Gestational Diabetes. I was diagnosed in my first trimester. When I found out I was pregnant I was already at my heaviest weight and was sure I was going to be over 300 pounds when I had her. So the Gestational Diabetes was a true blessing.

So I lost the 70lbs but after I had her life of a new mom got in my way and I gained 25.5 pounds back. I remember beating myself up. I was told "Chill, you had a baby, you eat what you can when you can and sleep when you can. It happens!" True but I still know that there are things I could have done. So I remembered about MFP, came on and started logging but not all the time. By September 22nd I had pretty much got to a point where I finally admitted I hated myself. I screamed at myself in the mirror and told myself I was fat and ugly and I hated me. My marriage was rocky because basically I had no love for myself, I basically was a vessel just letting life pass me by, I had no hope, no desires, no dreams anymore. I just let myself go. I figured that this was it and I was stuck at where I was forever and I felt like I could do nothing about it. Honestly I didn't think I could do anything about it because I thought I could never turn food down. Let me rephrase that, I thought I could never turn down my favorite foods. I thought watching how many calories I took in was just to much work and thought I did not want to waste my life on it. Well I had a friend tell me about a weight loss clinic she started going to. I looked into it, the price was decent, so I decided I'd try it.

I went in my first visit, he told me that while losing weight is a must since I was morbidly obese, he also wanted me to focus more on the measuring tape and lose inches because we don't want to sag. I knew right then I was in good hands. Now when I first started seeing him I also started getting a b12 shot, they asked me if I wanted hcg in it but I know HCG is a hormone and refuse it, I refuse to put hormones in my already hormonal body, I don't care what it does, I am ok with vitamins but I could do without the hormones I already naturally put off lol. He also gave me a script for adipex, (appetite suppressant) I hated how they made me feel so I quit taking them, I took them a week maybe 2 weeks? I said that if I can't lose the weight without a pill then I will be fat cus I can't do with how that made me feel. I am not much a fan of pills anyway. I told him after that I did not like that and I do not need a script, I am only there for support and the b12 shot. At the time I was not getting support from home. I also have a friend who i then found out is a nurse there. She also helps me out a lot even still with things if I have questions. Yes the first week I dropped 10 pounds, I'm sure the first week was mostly water weight. I still go see him after a year, just because he has helped me so much and I don't know, I guess it's like MFP, it becomes just apart of life. I mainly go for my weekly weigh in and the monthly measurements. I still get the b12 shot, I have noticed if I go a week or longer without going in, my body is very tired and sluggish, my hair begins to fall out, if its around my monthly, my periods are horrid!!! But I lack of have lacked b12 in my body.

Anyways, So after a year I have gone from a size 20 US Jeans in plus sized women to a size 3/4 Juniors pants I can wear a few 2's but not many. I was in denial for the longest time that I was in a 3/4. My 5/6's were falling off me and I thought I just lost my butt lol. However when my belt wouldn't keep them up, I tried on 3/4's and yup, they fit me. Some may ask, why do you shop in juniors? Because I like the fit better. Plus they are a bit cheaper. I bought a pair of express jeans the other day and they were also a 3/4 and they are my favorite pair of jeans. I do a lot of Goodwill shopping. As of today I have 8 pounds to go to hit my ultimate goal weight. After I hit my goal I will be re-assessing my goals. I would like to gain 10-15 pounds back with muscle. My way of eating will be totally cleaned up as well. I'll admit, I don't always eat the most healthiest of foods, in fact I have days sometimes weeks where it seems all I eat is junk. I know that, that is not good. Which is why I'm working a little at a time to fix things. I do not plan on ever to stop logging my calories.

Anyways here are my photo's. I'm sure most have seen them a lot around here. I took some new one's a few days ago.

Halloween 2009 - 250 lbs



Halloween 2010 - 200 lbs maybe? (I was pregnant)



September 22, 2011 - 205.5 lbs



A belly photo. About 180 lbs



Now! I took this yesterday!!! 130 lbs (128 lbs as of today but rounding it off)



Me wearing my newest pair of jeans and a cute camo top I just got.



Totally loving my new sweaters



Might be my halloween costume (librarian)



This was taken last night, I was about to head to work. I love my new work tops . And if I go as the Librarian I'd totally wear my hair like this with my glasses.



Then the other night I decided to see how this worked out, but I still want to get my son in the other leg with me...



And lastly! 1 face many different looks.



Yup that's my story!!!