At home workouts?

A real quick background story before I get started into this. About 2 years ago, the last time my husband was in Afghanistan, my goal was to lose weight and get healthy and fit. A new me. I was able to watch what I ate since I had no bad "influence" (aka my hubby) and go to the gym daily since my mom moved in with me to help me with my kids since he was gone. I had lost 30lbs in 6 months. Blood, sweat, and tears was put in it. He came home, my mom moved out and I was back to staying at home with my kids while he was at work. I gained all the weight back (+2 more lbs.) within two months of him returning home and have stayed that way for almost 2 years. I am beyond disappointed with myself. I failed me.

This time, I was tweaking everything and tryng new things to see how it would work when he returns home. One of the things, is to have a solid fallback. I knew my mom was leaving and I wouldn't be able to continue at the gym. My biggest motivator. I had set myself up for failure from the beginning. So this time I was looking for something realiable and stable, that would work when he returned home.

Now time to fast forward. Since the gyms are free on our military post, all I had to do was arrange daycare for my youngest son. I do not have the money to pay for gym memberships that offer daycare or even pay for regular daycare. My neighbor and I decided that 2 hours a day we'll swap kids. Perfect! Free daycare and gym (well me gym and her some "sanity" time). It has been about a month and it was working great. Well as of today, it looks like I won't be going to the gym anymore. She can no longer watch him. She is too overwelmed with two 2 year olds and a 6 week old. I get it. I have 3 boys myself (granted two of them are school age) but with my husband gone, I am both Mom and Dad. This is our thrid deployment and 2 of those I had a brand new baby (along with my others to take care of). I have no one to help me and I had to learn to deal with it (sounds harsh, I know). That being said, she was also getting two hours a day from her own two year old (only a 6 week old that sleeps). And I have asked others, but no luck.

So how am I feeling about this? It nearly breaks my heart. To me, it was more than a few hours alone. It was building a new, healthy me. It was me starting a new chapter in my life. Me making it out of the "obesity" zone. It was me building confidence and feeling good about myself. Me looking forward to getting out and running with my husband who does marathons for fun. I even started working on 5k training for when he got home. And of course looking good and fit was also a plus.

So now I'll look into other options at home in hopes that I will not put it off,like doing other housework that I'm already staring at all day. It's something that is very hard for me to get motivated to do. When I'm at home with my youngest and two dogs and a house that needs immidiate attention. It just sucks, I was making good progress. I'm down 27lbs in about two months. I need to get a stronger will power. And not let me gain all the weight back that I've lost....again. It's just so hard to stop cleaning, or running errands, or loads of laundry or taking the dogs out when I'm in the house, looking at everything that needs done. To stop and do some sort of workout on the tv would be the last thing on my mind.

So to all of you "at home workouters" how do you do it? What programs or videos do you guys like, that keeps you pumped to do it everyday?