Almost there...I got to keep on pushing

A LITTLE scared to do this, but I feel called to do it. First of all, I do not see this success as mine but of the Lord's. I want to give Him thanks and show everyone that He cares about ALL our needs and desires. He will meet all of our ne
eds. Even if we do not get our desires, He loves us enough to acknowledge them,too.

Most of my childhood was like a nightmare. I went through incest and physical and emotional abuse. Those around me took out their anger and emotional pain out on me. Though it hurt, I can look back now with God's mercy and compassion and see that hurt people hurt people. Because of all the abuse, I basically shut myself inside. I barely talked or interacted when I was in middle school. But through books by Malcom X, Maya Angelou and Toni Morrison, God gave me hope. And when I learned of Oprah's story, I heard His whisper to get up and live again when I was in8th grade. Ever since then, my goal has been to be successful and free from the past so that one day I can help other abused victims. I am actually doing that now at my current job in Africa, which I am thankful for. The road has not been easy. God has saved me from a suicide attempt during my senior year of college. He has paid my way around the world when I had limited support. I fought depression and attacks by others this year. But He has made me the victor. God you are truly Good. Usually when people attack my self-worth, I regress but this time because I trusted Him , He got me through the valley. And though I am slipping, flopping and struggling now, I will not give up as long as I know there is God. He is truly my father. And I know that He will give me the full victory.
Whatever you may be going though, know that He loves you and wants to help you. Let Him in. Your burden or pain may be great but He will make it manageable for you. Thank you Lord.
I hope I have not offended anyone. I'm not trying to impose my faith on anyone. But just in case , there is someone out there who is suffering or drowning in pain, you have a friend in God. He loves us all and hopes for the best for each one of us. Though I spent most of college hating and being angry at God, He still held me and kissed each of my wounds. I don't know why those bad things happened to me. And I don't think there is any good reason for it to had happen. But He is using what should have killed me to make me great by being a testimony for others to hold on to hope when all seems bleak and hopeless.
And you can also message me if you need support or prayers. Thanks for letting me share. God Bless,
K
P.S. ITs NEVEr too late to turn back to Him