My weight loss journey so far - 2 years and 58 pounds

I should add that sadly obesity runs in my family. My mother was very overweight in her adult years. She was a size 5 when she got married and then when her my dad got divorced in 1973 her only escape was food. She became very overweight, I think her high was very close to 300 pounds. She did every diet that was out there. Weight Watchers worked the best for her but as soon as she would start to lose any significant amount of weight her mother (who lived with us) would start making cookies and cakes and pies, knowing that my mom could not resist. It was a complete control thing with my grandmother and now as an adult when I think about it makes me sick! In October of 2006 she was finally approved to have gastric bypass surgery. She had her surgery on October 19th and on October 25th I held her for the last time. She developed an overwhelming infection as a result of the surgery and she died within hours of showing any signs or symptoms. Being a nurse, I felt like I should have known and should have been able to save her. This put me into a pretty significant depression and my way of dealing was to eat. Only six short months after my mom passed I got the phone call that my 25 year old brother passed away after a long struggle with drug and alchol addiction. This pretty much through me over the edge.

When I finally hit my highest weight, all I could think about was my mom and how badly she wanted to lose her weight and be healthy. I remember all of the things she wasn't able to do or wouldn't do with us when we were younger because of her weight. Simple things like going to the movies was not even an option because she was afraid that she wouldn't be able to fit comfortably in the seats. It finally hit me that this is the road that I was headed down and I realized that I couldn't do that to my daughters. And that is where be journey began. The journey will never end. I will continue on this read to health and happiness so that I can be there for my family and all that the future holds for us.

Thanks for reading!