body dysmorphia and meltdown

smilesalot1969
smilesalot1969 Posts: 392
edited January 4 in Motivation and Support
ohhhhh i am so not myself right now!! I cant seem to shake the mentality i have gotten myself into. I've been weight training/ gymming for 8 months now 5-6 days a week and was SO motivated even when my weight loss stalled. This last fortnight i cant seem to get it together, im only 7lb from goal and sticking to my diet but the exercise has gone out of the window. I had a few days away at my other halfs which is fine but i havent hit the gym since i got back. Im tired and keep making excuses not to go which isn't me at all, i was super addicted to the gym.
Mentally i know i've lost weight the numbers and clothes say so but i just dont see it even though ive gone from 5ft10 and sz16 to sz10/12 this time. I look down at myself and just see fat and only when i stand infront of a full length mirror do i get a shock and realise how much ive lost. My daughter keeps telling me to stop losing weight although my boyfriend says i look good so why do i still see a fat girl??
Im actually peeing myself off right now because im a super positive person usually and this is so out of character for me AARRGGHHHH

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  • NocturnalGirl
    NocturnalGirl Posts: 1,762
    I notice a lot of people who lose weight take time to adjust to the new you. Give it time. Look in the mirror and tell yourself over and over that you are beautiful and that you are not fat, even if it looks silly, do it! You will eventually (hopefully) believe it. What kind of feelings do you get? It might be worthwhile to see a therapist about it. Good luck!
  • riotshows
    riotshows Posts: 32
    It is normal to have days like that. Just tell yourself that you are not going to the gym this week and eat your max allowed....this will give you back the control and you can continue on.
  • maeveslim
    maeveslim Posts: 69 Member
    I have days when I feel the same, it does seem to take the mind a long time to catch up with the body. Old thought patterns can hang around for ages. You may need to do some visualisations looking into the mirror, look at your body in the mirror through the eyes of someone who LOVES you (not you, sounds like imagining your boyfriend might be a good idea or your mum etc) and notice all the things they would say about your body, hair, eyes, smile etc. Start at the top and work down, do not let YOUR opinions slide in and be critical, stay positive in your thoughts. Hope it helps :)
  • sugarlips1980
    sugarlips1980 Posts: 361 Member
    Congrats on your weight loss, what an achievement! Just had a gander at your pics, there's a body one there and you look fab! Defo not fat! But I know it's you who has to feel that. I can't wait to get slim and along with all the health benefits etc I really just want I feel good about myself. It's so important! When I was 18 I was 10 stone 7 (147 pounds for the Americans) and I felt hideously fat! I was at my heaviest a couple of months ago 15 stone 7. I wish I had felt better about myself back then, I only needed to lose maybe 7-14 pounds and tone up! But I'm sure feeling fat actually made me fat, because it can make you think what's the point? You recognise you should feel good about yourself... Did you take pics if yourself when you were bigger to put next to recent pics to remind yourself how far you've come?
  • smilesalot1969
    smilesalot1969 Posts: 392
    Congrats on your weight loss, what an achievement! Just had a gander at your pics, there's a body one there and you look fab! Defo not fat! But I know it's you who has to feel that. I can't wait to get slim and along with all the health benefits etc I really just want I feel good about myself. It's so important! When I was 18 I was 10 stone 7 (147 pounds for the Americans) and I felt hideously fat! I was at my heaviest a couple of months ago 15 stone 7. I wish I had felt better about myself back then, I only needed to lose maybe 7-14 pounds and tone up! But I'm sure feeling fat actually made me fat, because it can make you think what's the point? You recognise you should feel good about yourself... Did you take pics if yourself when you were bigger to put next to recent pics to remind yourself how far you've come?

    The body pic on there is way out of date i was size 16 there. I actually started the whole journey 10 years ago at size 26 and dieted to a size 14. i stayed that size for 8 years then the weight crept up to size 16 so 8 months ago i really cracked down and im now a size 10/12. I know the numbers im just having a hard time NOT seeing the fat girl when i look at myself. I just had a meltdown and im tired of my whole life revolving around diet and the gym.
    I looked for pics of myself from my fat days but truth is the rare one i did let anyone take i tore up because i was so ashamed. I'm glad its not just me that has off times though
  • BeautyFromPain
    BeautyFromPain Posts: 4,952 Member
    i have been diagnosed with BDD and know the exact feelings. here if you need to talk <3
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