Hello from the Mitten State

Hello!
My name is Tammy. I'm 41 years olds. Will be turning 42 the beginning of Feb. Mom to 4. (an angel above, 19, 14 and 11) Married to since Oct. 16 of 1999 to Tim. He is an over the road truck driver. My oldest son, Zack is in his second year of college. I cried when he left and got his own place near campus. James (14) is my jumping bean. He will be doing hurdles in track this year. Brooklynne (11) is the sweet and sour patch kid.LOL! Did I ever have that much attitude? My angel above is Brittany. She was stillborn as a result of a car accident (91) I was in when I was 7 months pregnant.
My step dad passed away of cancer (2 years this April) On his death bed, he told me I needed to get my weight under control cause when u r obese you are at higher risk for certain cancers. I had lost 74 pounds.
But I let the stress of handling things turn to food controlling me, when my dad was killed in an animal attack.Will be 2 years in May.
Handling his death and the estate and everything brings out the best in families. NOT!! Besides losing my dad I lost my 2 brothers when they did not get their way with the handling of the estate.They decided not to have anything to do with me and my family. I don't think it is that hard to understand that the estate has to be deal with things certain ways (legally) not how they want it dealt with.
In the last year, I have realized that I'm alot stronger than I give myself credit for. Now I just need to show it when it comes to eating and exercising. I need to not over stress myself by thinking...OMG, I need to lose half of my body weight. To bad you can't get fit and tone just watching exercise dvds.
If you are looking for a fitness pal to help "walk" with you on the path to a healthy life, please add me.