Tragedy Really Puts Things in Perspective

That shooting yesterday really mentally effected me. Its the first time ive had a kid during one of these, at least one that's in some sort of school, and I was really rattled. It put a lot of stuff in perspective, made me realise I complain too much about the small things, or get mad about stuff that shouldn't matter. Perhaps I just don't appreciate the now enough, too focused on where I want to be instead of where I am. With all that tragedy it makes you realize that life is short, and something catastrophic could happen at any moment. We need to let the little things go, we need to be happy with who we are, there's no need to stress what others think, am I too fat, too skinny, not good looking, its all so pointless when u don't just appreciate the moment.

I need to enjoy the time I have with my family, and not freak out everytime my sin doesn't listen, I'm not saying don't punish him when he deserves it, but perhaps not every insignificant thing. I also need to just be happy with who I am, somedays I just get upset looking in the mirror, not appreciating all that ive accomplished, but instead looking at all my issues, this is no way to live. I need to be happy with who I am now, again that doesn't mean quit trying, but maybe just be less judgemental about myself and love me and who I am now.

I also want to be less hard on myself if I slip up, that doesn't mean I'm cheating all the time, but in the overall picture does that cookie or pizza really hurt is taking a night off to enjoy family time that bad, of course not. It sucks something like this has to happen to change the way you think, but it has and I am going to try and really live my life to the fullest and really just enjoy what life offers.

My hearts and prayers go out to all the families and those little angels.