not even sure what to do anymore

Injury is a legitimate reason to stop exercising. You wouldn't want to hurt yourself more in the long run. It doesn't mean that you have given up or that you won't keep going. The fact that you keep trying is really what is important. I don't know what will be down the line for you. However, I believe that if you keep at your lifestyle change you will feel better about yourself. I also believe that your life will get better as well.

I think many people have this same feeling, they want to better themselves, but are so unhappy with themselves that it doesn't even matter anymore.
I thought the same way about myself. I would get so depressed, not care because everything in life is boring, the same, and I wasn't happy, so I didn't care what I looked like. Something clicked, not sure what it was, but I was just...TIRED of feeling miserable. I'd watch shows and see other people who can live life, and try to have some fun with it. I realized that, if I lost some weight, and change something about myself, I'd feel a bit happier, and it was enough to get me started.

Dedicate yourself to it, make it a point, but make it fun. keep the app on hand and remind yourself to do this, think about the kind of energy and fun things you can do when you get to your goal. Make a diary, not just a food one, but, a general one, go out and buy a plain one, then decorate it how you want, personalize it and make it a point to write what you feel and why. Get a planner and do the same, so you can keep track of your progress. Set small goals, and no matter what, push yourself to get to them. Fight hard and have that picture in mind of the person you want to be like. You can be who you want to be, you just need to let go and have some fun. When you achieve a small goal, treat yourself! For me, it's piercings, I love body mods and something like that makes me feel a bit better about myself. Altering my appearance slighty with clothes, or a new haircut, jewelry, those things are enough to make me feel a bit better about myself.

Something needs to click for you, just take a few deep breaths, and clear your head. Do something that will make you feel happy, then realize, you WANT to be happy, and changing yourself will get you there. I've lost close to 60lbs total, 48 of that with help of MFP and my friends on here. I can say, while I still stress and feel depressed from time to time, I'm SO HAPPY with the changes I made to myself. I love how I look now, and thats one less thing that I have to worry about, in fact, that's something I can be proud of. Blood, sweat and tears have got me to this point, and I feel amazing. You just need to hold onto that thought of being happy some day, and keep that as a treasure you must guard with your life, fighting off your inner demons. I know you can do it, just hang on there, and don't give up. When you feel week, yell to get back up, and know you have people to help you get there.

i was doing so good with insanity and i freaking pull my back in more than one place.. it's been almost a month.. today i would have completed insanity i'm so so disapointed in myself i never finish anything and i was actually doing good. this sucks.. i have lost a few pounds but i feel like i gave up as soon as i hurt my back .. . i say i didn't wanna hurt it more but i question myself if that's the real reason or i just wanted to stop trying becuase i was tired of it and didn't want it anymore. i want to have a lifestyle change where i can be healthy and thin because i HOPE it will give me more confidence within myself. i say hope because sometimes i feel like it doesn't matter if i'm 200 lbs or 100 .. no matter how skinny i get i'll still hate myself, and that scares me. i'm being this honest with all of you because i don't really know who to say all of this to. i want to count calories to a T and be the best i can be and at the same time i just want to end it all becuase i'm tired of living this life. i know i have to be the one to change it but honestly i dont think i'm even worth it anymore. i kept posting about how i would get back into it because i was bored bu i dont even think that's the problem... the problem is i dont care about myself enough to change anything even though i want to so bad. i dont know if this makes sense i just wish it would all stop.. i tell this to my mom all the time and i'm sure it breaks her heart but i just wanna be reincarnated .. i can't take me anymore


Girl, why would you hate yourself??? If you dont love yourself who will??? Its was believe to love yourself is selfish year ago, never.... you matter and you count... weight doesnt determine how good you are or how happy you are. Yes gettting weight off can help with your over health. Just because you cant workout due to injury then just pay attention to what you eat... I am trying to get you think about what a good person you are and dont hate yourself.

you are so right warrior63- mind set can do just about anything.. its the will and drive that will get results....think positive and stay focus.