Hello Everyone!

Hello everyone,
My name is Jennifer. I am 27 years old and live in a small town in Oklahoma. There really isn't too much to do here in my town, you kind of have to make your own fun, so I really enjoy the warm weather and being able to go fishing!
I am coming here because I need help to be honest, I can't do it on my own. I am 27 and probably in the worst shape of my life and I feel that is pretty pathetic to say. I have let many circumstances in my life lead me down the wrong path, and whose to say its the circumstances fault at the end of the day its my own, for not saying no to myself, as weird as that may sound. My "dream" goal would to be where the "chart" says I should which would be like in the 140s or so HOWEVER, I am far from that right now I am in the 200s and that is so depressing! I have gotten to where even hearing the world scale my skin crawls!
Obesity, diabetis and a ton of other health issues run in my family and I really don't want to just become another one who has taken one of them on. I have fought with my weight my entire life, I have times when I can work my butt off literally and only lose the most 8 pounds, I just don't get it! I have a mom who has really dedicated and she has lost almost 100 pounds if not already and its so amazing to see how much of a different person she is. I want that for me. I don't want to be the "ideal" woman, I want to be what is best and comfortable for me. I want to be at a weight to where I can get up and feel good about going out or dating and not be so self conscious. I hate even taking pictures because I feel like a big cow! Anyways I really hope that with this site I can find and make good friends, find those who are going through the exact same thing that I am and who have been there and can say it will be fine and yes you can do it!
Thanks for taking the time to read this and I wish us all the best!
God Bless,
-Jenn