Lost and then gained - isn't that everyone's story?

Hey there.

I'm looking for friends - awesome members of motivation. There's this addiction I have which I'm sure many others have; I seem to be a slave to the rest of this fat that my body has on me. With keeping it on I keep on thinking about the positive aspects that will change my life for the better, and running far, far away from it.

You see, it seems that any time I make progress with this lovely young body of mine, I purposely deter it. Understandably this would damage huge portions of myself. I'm coming to an imbalance, and the hypocrisy is detrimental.

I believe in health. I've spend ten years studying it thoroughly. I know so much - and yet I have the hardest time putting into practice. I'm literally addicted to feeling bad about my body.

I've gotten over most of my life's major troubles - this is the last one. I've let go of so many things. If I can let go of this, I can do anything. BUT I need help. I need to feel like this is achievable, and I know that I can no longer do this alone.