Need support

honu18
honu18 Posts: 294 Member
edited January 10 in Motivation and Support
Hi all,

I've been fighting to lose weight for a long time, after I lost it initially, developed PCOS and gained it back, and then slowly lost some again once I started eating properly for PCOS and being on medications for it. However, constantly worrying about sugar intake and carbs (and trying to lose weight and I couldn't no matter what with PCOS) led me to become obsessive about food and feel really restricted. I did my best over the holidays and the damage from the holidays wasn't too bad, but still there. However, when I got back to normal/my home and was looking forward to nromal workouts I ended up with the flu which knocked me out of intense workouts for almost a week, and then about 3 days back into normal, I fell and got a concussion which kept me out of ANY activity for about 3 days and now I'm just walking (but I don't have enough hours in the day to spend walking for two hours to get a decent sized calorie burn that I'm used to). I'm extremely stressed from work and have been limiting my food all week because of no workouts.

I let myself have a individual bag of m&ms on the day I got a concussion, but other than that, nothing. Today I went to the store and I caved. I bought a bunch of foods I know are trigger foods for me that I can eat a lot of. I may be spending the day with friends tomorrow and wish I could have used that as a day to sort of cheat/relax, but I can't control myself today. I already ate probably about 600 or 700 calories so far today (it's only 11 pm where I live) and my goal is 1,200 to 1,300--which is going to lead me to feelings of restriction all day.

I'm so frustrated with restricting myself. I know that I made a lifestyle change because I feel bad about eating foods that aren't good for me and don't do it often.. but with my conditions it is SO easy to gain weight back that I have to constantly eat restricted/at a deficit and workout like a fiend to maintain my weight. Even my doctors told me that.

Do you have any advice? Should I just say screw this weekend and start anew on Monday? I know the feelings of guilt when my pants are tighter (they already are after this week) will happen but part of me just doesn't care anymore. I want to be happy again.

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  • sofielein
    sofielein Posts: 539 Member
    If I get that desperate about eating something nice (emotional eating and whatnot) I just give in..

    But not for a whole weekend, no. 1 day is allowed, eat what I like, not care, but the next day needs to be a new start. Also, usually when I eat relatively a lot, I get up really content and not hungry the next day. This works very well for me.

    As of you, don't be discouraged. Everybody has sh*tty times. A diet must be long term so I don't think 2 days matter. What matters is what you do the rest of the month (your life?)....
  • faithchange
    faithchange Posts: 311 Member
    Speaking from experience...total experience!!!! I too have PCOS and have had it for over 10 years. I've always been obese and believe me obesity ran in my family...grandma, mom, brothers and sister, ect.

    I got placed on Metformin...and yes they say it helps you lose weight...uh...NOPE! You must also work at it..cutting the carb and sugar...ect.

    I struggled with PCOS so much that when I got married 8 years ago...suffered three miscarriages off the bat given all the hormone crap linked to PCOS...but here to tell you I did get my little miracles who now are 6 and 4 years old.

    After second child was off nursing and I was sick of being 237 lbs...I got the right frame of mind. FRAME OF MIND is the ticket here. For anything to work you must get the right frame of mind to conquer your challenge at hand...making a lifestyle change.
    I grew up with my mom NEVER healthy and didn't want that for my life. Embarrassing enough I was kind of upset with her and worried what people would think of my mom...I didn't want that for my kids.

    I was 33 when I had my first and now am almost 40 yr old. I want to be around for my kids and enjoy them. I wised up and worked at it in 2010...it was not easy..but the weight did start coming off. I didn't take the metformin any longer just by choice. My Dr. said to stopped taking if I could remain at a healthy weight.

    Anyways...I've lost 72 lbs...YES---72lbs, but in over 2 1/2 years. I kept focus. Did I fall? Yes. Did I eat what I wanted at times...YES.

    Now, after holidays...I gained 8 lbs. UGH! I'm down, but do I throw the towel in looking for a quick fix? NOPE! As you know...I lost my mother, who was only 70 yr old in Oct. It was very devasting. She started MFP in July 2012 and tried and was getting some progress, but in the end found out that her heart was only operating at 35% capacity which is nothing. :(

    A month later, I get hit again...but harder with the diagnosis of my four year old having Type 1 Diabetes...what the hell!?! How can life be any crueler? I delved into the sweets a bit, but I logged as much as I could...

    All I have to say is keep on going. Your doing it...just to admit what your struggling with is a start. Own it. Know what you want...GOALS!!! Know with the GOALS that they don't and will not happen over night! You can and will do this.

    Let me add one more thing...I have depression and anxiety...on meds that cause weight gain and carb craving. I just eat more frequently, drink water and workout to counter it out.

    Once you get going on the logging and staying within your MFP allotment daily....then occasionally allow yourself the treat...but not a huge amount!!! :)

    I don't know what else to say, other than if I CAN DO IT...I BELIEVE YOU CAN TOO!

    Good Luck! Can't wait to see your results of kicking your own butt! :)

    Michelle
  • faithchange
    faithchange Posts: 311 Member
    YOU WILL BE HAPPY AGAIN! I know that when I fell off a bit with son's diagnosis...I started disliking ME cause I knew I was gaining a little bit. I get more self confidence and like ME more when I'm working on my goal. The goal could be through eating healthier...meaning resisting temptation when you know you want the candy and instead go for something else. In time, switch to dark choc m/m ONE SERVING and a few almonds...that's what I do :)

    Or, when able to workout again...goals centered around how long you do it, calories burned goal, ect.

    I always looked forward to seeing results.

    Sorry...I'm just adding more and more.

    It depends if you want a break...one weekend will not hurt (this weekend) and then start new Monday, but not every weekend like this! :)
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