I'm coming back to succeed!

Hey everyone,
I've decided to come back. I haven't logged in in three years, holy smokes.
Since then I have had my third child and could not lose the weight. So I went on an outrageous diet that should be called starvation and lost 55lbs in 28 days. And you know what they say about crash diets? That the weight comes back and it does after four months every ounce was packed back on. Since then I have lost a few pounds here and a few pounds there and then gained them back.
I refuse to go on another fad, ridiculous diet, and aside from throwing around ideas about weight watchers, nutrisystem, ect. I haven't found anything that was right for me. The name of this site was brought up in a conversation and I had remembered that I was once on here. Once I figured out my password I checked out my old profile and I had lost fifteen pounds before. I know that this is the right way to eat and after awhile the exercising and calorie counting will come naturally.
But for now I am out of my element, and a little scared to step out and become the healthier lighter version of me, it seems really nice to just hide behind ( not to be blunt) my layers of fat and eat a couple tacos extra sour cream and guacamole. I dont have 100lbs to loose but a good 50-60 would put me right at the high end of that doctors scale of what your weight should be according to your height.
Needless to say My name is Holly, I have three wonderful little girls and after being a stay at home mom for 6 years I just went back to work a few weeks ago. I need a change and a big one, I have been stuck in a rut since I had my last little beauty and well its time to get out of it head first and screaming.
Anyone want to be my buddy and keep me on track I would really appreciate it. If not well thanks for reading my post all the way through, I really enjoyed writing it, it kind of made me put it all out there and seal the deal.
Good Luck fellow fitness pals.
* Holly