You win this round, MFP. (shakes fist...)

I woke this morning in misery. Monthly, hormone induced misery. And I made a decision. Today is MY day. I will log my food to stay in the habit, but I will NOT care what I eat. I will eat what I want.

I made plans. Good ones. The thought of comfort in the form of chocolate, carbs, pj's, and Midol made me smile. And I started off strong. As I helped my daughter get ready for school, I grabbed 2 cookies. After dropping her off, I ran through McDonald's for breakfast. Yummiest Egg McMuffin I've had in awhile. I thoroughly enjoyed it. I had two more cookies. Yummy! I ran a few errands, dreaming of Chili Cheese fries for lunch. But then lunch came, and I wasn't hungry. I was tired. So, why not wait, get those chili cheese fries AND a grilled cheese sandwich a little later? Right now, I'll get in bed, open up the windows to enjoy a nap filled with sunshine and a nice breeze. (I'm in Texas - it's still 75 here...)

I woke from my nap in time to pick my daughter up from school. Perfect - 1/2 off drinks to go along with my chili cheese fries! Score! Only, I didn't really want them anymore. I wanted a banana. So I had a banana. "I'll grab those chili cheese fries on the way to work tonight," I thought. "That way I don't have to share. "

In the meantime, I made a healthy version of one of my mom's comfort food recipes for dinner. A little hamburger meat and mushroom sauce on brown rice, and a plate pilled high with green beans. It really hit the spot. I thought to myself, "We should go get a giant ice cream cone from DQ after dinner." But then I remembered, I bought those Skinny Cow ice cream sandwiches the other day exactly for times like this. So I had one of those instead.

What have you done to me MFP?! In 2 weeks, you've taught me to seek comfort in things that are not food. You've taught me to NOT eat when I'm NOT hungry. You've taught me that if I wait to satisfy a craving, maybe it will go away. You've taught me to eat food that my body will appreciate, rather than ones only my mouth will enjoy. You taught me to keep a mental tally of every one of those cookies I grabbed. You made me lose 4 pounds so far. Thanks a lot, MFP! You ruined my plans!

Here I am at work now, beginning my night shift. I did drive through Sonic, but only for a Diet Coke. I never did get my chili cheese fries - I never really wanted them. Thanks to my strong start, I did go over my calories for the day - by 143. But my original plans would have put me over by 1,995 calories.

Thanks a lot MFP. You're pretty awesome.