Hi.

Hi. I'm new here (kind of). I actually registered about six months ago but then didn't use my account. Now I'm back and trying to get on board and lose some weight. Here's my story...

A little over three years ago I finally left a really toxic relationship. I was with a guy who was always so critical of my weight. He would hug me and tell me he could feel that I had gained weight in my back. I was afraid to eat in front of him so I ended up sneaking food. It was really unhealthy. I kept food at my desk at work and would eat there since I was afraid to eat breakfast in front of him. I'd eat all day long at work in order to try to fill up since I would be afraid to eat at home. If I was fortunate enough to be able to get out of the house without him, like for a dr appt, I would stop somewhere for fast food and eat really quickly to kill my hunger. It was a horrible way to live and I ended up gaining weight because I was always eating horrible food, at weird hours, and very quickly. When I met my now-husband I weighed about 155lbs. I got a lot healthier because I would cook at home and I was happy. I dropped to 122lbs in a year. Then there was his job loss, my job loss, our move, then he got sick, had surgery, and routine was all disrupted again. I also got very comfortable in my new relationship and he loved my original curves so over the next two years my weight crept back up to it's current 156lbs. My husband is amazingly supportive and loving. He tells me he loves my curves and that I don't need to lose any weight but he will support me if I feel that is what I want to do. At 5'2" I feel (and my doctor has said) that I need to lose a little weight. I was happiest with my weight when I was about 135 and that is what I want to be again.

I'm trying to develop an eating routine and watch what I eat very carefully. I don't want this to be a short-term diet. I want to be, and live, healthy. I could use some support and some friends on here. Please feel free to add me. :happy: