Back on the wagon with the Lord

After I losing a 122 pounds I kind of gave up because I was tired of not seeing enough results quickly. Body was still jiggly and fat. Thus, I lost faith in the process, God's ability to get me to the finish line, and myself. I need to do this again but it has been so hard to get back on track. i will have one good week or some days and then sabotage it during a weekend. And sometimes these binges will last for about week. I am tired of this yo-yoing because my body cannot handle these binges anymore. One binge can keep me bloated and with a blah feeling for several days .And that can cause me to binge even more. Because the binging helps me forget about the bloated feelings. So over the past several months I have gone from 178 pounds to 188pounds . Only ten pounds, but now I am even more jiggly and bloated. I need help because I have lost the discipline and the will. Please pray for me and those of you who see this wlj as also a faith journey, what did you do to get back on track not only with wlj but with God and His power to heal you from gluttony and slothfulness
But right now I have taken some steps that I believe that are directed by the Holy Spirit to get back on track. I am doing the Lords Table Bible study program from setting captive free. i am on day 24. it has taken at least two months to get there. But I am grateful for it because it has been good for me spiritually. I have also created a prayer weightloss journal to track my food , emotions, and prayers with the Lord. i even had it blessed by the priest. I REALLY want the Lord to be the center of it this time. i think I lost track of Him because I wanted to make other people jealous of my success and prove them wrong. And that got me nowhere. The anger and vengeance led me almost to my destruction. But thank God He protected me though I was stubborn.
Next, i need to decide a workout plan that I can stick with. i like running and turbofire. But I struggle the energy to workout. I have went to my first capoiera class last week and will try to go again on Monday. Exercise does help me so much physically, mentally, and spiritually but I guess I feel like whats its the point after this setback. Thanks for letting me post this long share. Love this site