Here it goes here it goes here it goes again!

lidiflyful
lidiflyful Posts: 28
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hi
I joined MFP like a year ago and did really well for about a month, I lost 4 pounds when I was stuck in a rut....then my boyfriend broke up with me and I fell massively off the wagon! I'm sure that this has happened to others, but at the moment I am in a wishy washy cycle of on, of, on off eating by the DAY. I tried that diet were you only diet twice a week and that didn't work, I also tried eating normally and working out and that didn't work! I was a size 8 once but for the life of me I can't remember how I did it! I've always been a size 14 but when I dropped to a size 8, I have to be honest, it was marvellous! I maintained the weight for about 5 months, met my boyfriend and piled it back on (I had known him since I was a size 14)

anyhooo....fast forward 2 years he breaks up with me and I replace him with food! I knew what I was doing but I just couldn't help myself...I was Mrs PAC-MAN and from September until now I have put on roughly a stone, and undid all my hard work to shift those measly 4 pounds!!!!
We're back together now, planning a solid future and physically he loves me the way I am, I got a fabulous promotion at work so everything in life is honky dory....except I am not comfortable at my current weight....and yet again I go out for a good night out with friends and I spend most of the evening ogling slim women and wishing away my flabby arms, and wishing my thighs didn't rub together when I walk and holding my arms protectively over my paunchy stomach.

I am so disappointed with myself, Is there anyone out there who gets as frustrated with themselves as I do?? Even if there is just one ill feel better!

Thanks for reading my rant...I really needed to get that off my chest!

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  • DotPett
    DotPett Posts: 181 Member
    Remember your weight does not define you. And just that you keep trying and logging in after a year, means that you have it in you to meet your goal! Congrats on the promotion!
    :smile:
  • AJ_Pete
    AJ_Pete Posts: 863 Member
    GD YOU FOR PUTTING THAT SONG IN MY HEAD.

    GD YOU STRAIGHT TO H.
  • bethvandenberg
    bethvandenberg Posts: 1,496 Member
    Life happens everyday. I too would've pigged out if my man broke it off with me but that's over now so time to get with the program. When I first started I would get on the treadmill and think to myself I'm leaving all those negative feelings about my weight/me behind me. Walk farther walk faster to get away from the negitive. :)

    If you truely want change you will make it happen.

    Congrats on the promotion and the working things out with BF. Best of luck. \
  • MrsBillyBell
    MrsBillyBell Posts: 1
    hi I'm Tenille i had lost 100 lbs then in june my husband and I lost our visits for 90 days[My husband is in prison]. I became depressed & developed old habits again like eatting my feelings as I put it.So I know how hard it is to over come that habit. Now its time to get back on track! I'm 35 & a mother of 5 so life can be crazy. My goal is to lose at least 85 pounds.
  • lidiflyful
    lidiflyful Posts: 28
    I am guilty of emotional eating, I was hoping I would go the other way and loose weight with stress! Lol I'm joking of course, I want to loose weight in a healthy way, does anyone know of any 'tricks' or 'tips' on how to manage emotional overeating? I have yet to weigh myself since last week, I'm kinda scared about what I'll find! X
  • lidiflyful
    lidiflyful Posts: 28
    I thought I would update everyone, after my last post i fell off the wagon (again!) at xmas but then get back on track 2 months ago...so far I have lost a further 14 pounds! I've done it mearly by walking 2 miles everyday on top of my 3 days a week working out. I also started slimfast which I much prefer to do in my day to day life as it stops me from overeating..

    Yay!

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