Please help!!!!

Your boyfriend shouldn't be telling you what to eat. You have given him too much control. Eat what YOU want to eat. It sounds like you are ready to make a change and he doesn't get to determine if you will stick to it or not. If he can't behind you getting healthy, then he is not good for you and you should dump him. He is too controlling anyway. I agree that you need to get some therapy to talk through your issues.

I agree with the other commenters that you need to sort out the other issues before you can be successful at healthy weight loss. If you really think that you boyfriend's issues with your eating come from a place of him worrying that you will starve yourself and lose weight destructively, consider getting him on board by asking him to help you plan nutritionally balanced (and calorie appropriate, >1200 cal/day) meals using the MFP calculator. Seeing how you're doing it and understanding your food vs. exercise balance may reassure him that you're not going to do something unhealthy -- particularly if he doesn't currently understand healthy eating as anything other than not starving oneself. If he refuses to support you in a healthy plan, you need to think seriously about why you want to be with someone who is undermining and harming you.

You only need to lose 22 lbs and you're setting your calorie intake at 900?
Here I was thinking you were this really big/obese person by the way you made yourself sound at the beginning.
I don't understand why *some* men feel the need to do that to others. But well... since he is all you have, I would say do things in *moderation* and PLEASE up your calorie intake. You are doing more harm than good to your internal organs when you go that low. I don't care what people say, long term this is killing your body.

There are no quick fixes. Hydrate yourself and if you can't eat healthier, eat in moderation.

Ok so I took a look at your diary and I noticed some things that are missing. So I will help out a little here, like a lot of the posters have already said, the diet needs to change. And diet this even dudes do: High protien low carb diet, this is excellent for burning the calories. Definitely add Veggies to your meal. Remember the mantra calories are not the enemy, your body needs them otherwise it will make everything you eat into fat. Put your calorie meater to something more achievable like 1400 calories (of lean meats and veggies).

Instead of a banana for breakfast eat 2 boiled eggs. Have a piece of string cheese for a snack at lunch have some soup etc. There should be some of these simple foods lying around. Once your diet is level you will notice more energy to want to work out. Feeling like crap because of bad food is normal, you can either use it as a cop out or take control and control what you eat. I know you have a computer, use it to find work out plans that work for you, and whe you dont think you have time, look up the no excuse workout, or workouts you can do before the shower. They are only a few minutes long and pow you just increased your metabolism.

Now there have been a lot of comments about the boyfriend. He can either be the enemy like you have portrayed him or your best support. One thing I have noticed is he is truly worried about you and wants to make sure you are eating, so you dont die. Show him that you understand that but work together to get educated and find a healthy options. Your boyfriend sounds like he is communicating his concern to your welbeing and these measures seems pretty desparate to try to help you. In the end no one is forcing you, you are making the choices.

The longer you take to make changes, the more unhealthy and unhappy you will become. Also hint number one: the first week changing to a strict diet and decent exercise regimin normally gives you a large amount of weightloss and thereafter is about 10% of your body weight a week. Also make sure you are taking your vitamins especially vitamin b

Like, is there a way I can trick him into letting me eat less/healthier.

Buy a dog and slip your food under the table to the dog when your boyfriend is not looking.

Seriously, though, I agree with the many others who think it sounds like you need more help than you can get from an online forum. If your BF isn't helping you be a better person, and from the little you told us he is definetly not or being very misguided about how to help you, then you need a major change.

There are various charities that offer free or fee based on what you can afford counseling services. I think you should consider going.

this will be a first for me:

you need to dump your dumba$$ boyfriend. you need to then start doing what is right for YOU! don't ever let a man dictate what you do/don't do, what you eat/don't eat. he's not a good guy if he's making you eat the very things that helped transform yourself into an unhealthy individual. exercise is just one part of being healthy. you also need to eat healthy and you need to be emotionally healthy as well!

good luck.