Frustrated/not sure what I'm doing right or wrong
meaghapedia
Posts: 6
Hi everyone,
I've been on this site for what seems like FOREVER and I still have no idea what I'm doing.
I'm 5'6", 145 lbs, size 8 - 10, 24 years old, Type 1 Diabetic.
About 4 years ago I starved myself down to 100 lbs/size zero and did a bunch of stupid things like not taking my insulin regularly, which is really really not an option now. I'm lucky that I didn't do excessive damage to myself during that time and realize now how much better I feel when my sugars are in the right range.
I'm in a much better place emotionally/mentally now and never want to go back to where I was. I worry about being triggered by weight loss and/or following a restrictive diet, but am also intrigued by Paleo/low carb because I've heard that both can be beneficial for Diabetics.
However, I'm getting frustrated. I started college in January and have been trying to work out regularly (probably an average of 4 45 min cardio work outs with some light weights per week) since then... I feel like I'm not improving at all. At the worst part of my eating disorder I was registering approximately a lb lost per day (due to high sugars/no insulin) and the apparent lack of results now is discouraging.
I'm having a hard time restricting what I'm eating. Today I started off well with oatmeal, peanut butter, rice cakes, and a banana, but after a dinner of mashed potatoes (no butter), chicken legs (left 1/2 the skin), roasted cauliflower, and a small cob of corn, I've reached 2000 calories, and if this was a normal day, I'd have eaten lunch as well, which would probably put me somewhere around 2300 - 2500. I understand it's important to be aware of what I'm eating but at the same time, don't want to count calories for the rest of my life.
I feel like I have fairly decent muscle mass, but my muscles are hidden under fat. A lot of the time I feel like I wish I could unzip my skin and go back to feeling like "me" again.
Maybe this is something I should talk to a therapist about instead of a bunch of strangers on a website, but I'm hoping there are some people out there who have been here/understand what I'm going through.
I've been on this site for what seems like FOREVER and I still have no idea what I'm doing.
I'm 5'6", 145 lbs, size 8 - 10, 24 years old, Type 1 Diabetic.
About 4 years ago I starved myself down to 100 lbs/size zero and did a bunch of stupid things like not taking my insulin regularly, which is really really not an option now. I'm lucky that I didn't do excessive damage to myself during that time and realize now how much better I feel when my sugars are in the right range.
I'm in a much better place emotionally/mentally now and never want to go back to where I was. I worry about being triggered by weight loss and/or following a restrictive diet, but am also intrigued by Paleo/low carb because I've heard that both can be beneficial for Diabetics.
However, I'm getting frustrated. I started college in January and have been trying to work out regularly (probably an average of 4 45 min cardio work outs with some light weights per week) since then... I feel like I'm not improving at all. At the worst part of my eating disorder I was registering approximately a lb lost per day (due to high sugars/no insulin) and the apparent lack of results now is discouraging.
I'm having a hard time restricting what I'm eating. Today I started off well with oatmeal, peanut butter, rice cakes, and a banana, but after a dinner of mashed potatoes (no butter), chicken legs (left 1/2 the skin), roasted cauliflower, and a small cob of corn, I've reached 2000 calories, and if this was a normal day, I'd have eaten lunch as well, which would probably put me somewhere around 2300 - 2500. I understand it's important to be aware of what I'm eating but at the same time, don't want to count calories for the rest of my life.
I feel like I have fairly decent muscle mass, but my muscles are hidden under fat. A lot of the time I feel like I wish I could unzip my skin and go back to feeling like "me" again.
Maybe this is something I should talk to a therapist about instead of a bunch of strangers on a website, but I'm hoping there are some people out there who have been here/understand what I'm going through.
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Don't give up! I'm basically the same size/height as you, but I don't have Type 1 Diabetes (my mom does, so I do understand what you're going through). The scales haven't moved in 3 weeks for me and I try to keep to roughly 1200 calories. It's totally possible to eat less. I didn't think I could, but if you choose foods high in protein and fiber, it truly helps fill you up. Choose veggies, fruit, eggs; just choose less. That's how I did it. I am not giving up yet, and neither should you. Hang in there.0
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First of all, educate yourself.
Read this and go from there.
http://www.myfitnesspal.com/topics/show/654536-in-place-of-a-road-map-2-0-revised-7-2-120 -
First of all, educate yourself.
Read this and go from there.
http://www.myfitnesspal.com/topics/show/654536-in-place-of-a-road-map-2-0-revised-7-2-12
I second this^^^^, Read Dan's Roadmap and if nothing else it will give you the information.0 -
Slow yourself down, take a breath.
Change your life is not a sprint, its a marathon!
First of all, be patient with yourself.0
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