Need someone to get inside my head.

I have been watching Superskinny v Supersize, and Biggest Loser and other programmes about people who are overweight, and the doctors/trainers try to get inside the head of the fat person to see what happened that caused them to overeat.

A lot of people seem to have proper underlying problems, such as abuse, or comfort eating after a death in the family, or their mum/dad left them as a child.

I am trying to find out if there is anything that is causing me to eat all the time. When I was younger, I never thought I was thin/skinny, although I wasn't massive, I was the middle sized person in my little clique of three. I had a fat friend and a skinny friend. And I always seemed to have an unhealthy (although probably normal for a child) relationship with sweets and chocolates. My parents allowed my sister and I to have 4 chocolates on the weekend, and I ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS ate mine on Friday night and had none left for the weekend.

As I got older, I found the key to the chocolate cupboard and pilfered the chocolates. When I was older still, I would use all my pocket money to buy sweets, crisps and chocolates and I would scoff them all in one sitting, something that has carried on all through my life. These days, I can't buy certain things because I just eat it all, like biscuits, chocolates, crisps and even cheese! But until I was about 18, I never put on any weight.

It was only when I came to England from South Africa that I started putting weight on. I was happy in my relationship and I put weight on. Then when we broke up, I lost it all again. Then I met someone else, but this time I put weight on because I was unhappy in my relationship and he made me feel ugly. Not for want of trying, I did several weight loss programmes and did eventually get down to 9st 7lbs (which incidentally is my goal now), but then put it all back on, plus more. Then we broke up 4 years ago and I lost some of the weight and then met my wonderful fiance. I am very happy with him and once again, I put the weight on and 2 years ago, I decided enough was enough and while I was happy in my relationship, I was not happy with myself. I didn't feel as good on the outside as I felt on the inside. And hence, here I am now, 32lbs lighter and still going.

But, I still have the compulsion to buy loads of sweets, chocolates and crisps and just nom them all in one sitting and I just don't understand why.

Anyone (who took the time out to read my novel of a post) had a similar situation, or know anyone in a similar situation? I don't think there is a real cause, but my relationship with food has always been unhealthy.

Reading back through my own post, could it be that I just associate happiness and comfort with food? And if that's the case, why did I not wither away and die when I was unhappy in my last relationship? Was I trying to make myself happy by eating? And if that's the case, why did I eat so badly when I WAS happy in a relationship.

Sorry for the long post!

I have been watching Superskinny v Supersize, and Biggest Loser and other programmes about people who are overweight, and the doctors/trainers try to get inside the head of the fat person to see what happened that caused them to overeat.

A lot of people seem to have proper underlying problems, such as abuse, or comfort eating after a death in the family, or their mum/dad left them as a child.

I am trying to find out if there is anything that is causing me to eat all the time. When I was younger, I never thought I was thin/skinny, although I wasn't massive, I was the middle sized person in my little clique of three. I had a fat friend and a skinny friend. And I always seemed to have an unhealthy (although probably normal for a child) relationship with sweets and chocolates. My parents allowed my sister and I to have 4 chocolates on the weekend, and I ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS ate mine on Friday night and had none left for the weekend.

As I got older, I found the key to the chocolate cupboard and pilfered the chocolates. When I was older still, I would use all my pocket money to buy sweets, crisps and chocolates and I would scoff them all in one sitting, something that has carried on all through my life. These days, I can't buy certain things because I just eat it all, like biscuits, chocolates, crisps and even cheese! But until I was about 18, I never put on any weight.

It was only when I came to England from South Africa that I started putting weight on. I was happy in my relationship and I put weight on. Then when we broke up, I lost it all again. Then I met someone else, but this time I put weight on because I was unhappy in my relationship and he made me feel ugly. Not for want of trying, I did several weight loss programmes and did eventually get down to 9st 7lbs (which incidentally is my goal now), but then put it all back on, plus more. Then we broke up 4 years ago and I lost some of the weight and then met my wonderful fiance. I am very happy with him and once again, I put the weight on and 2 years ago, I decided enough was enough and while I was happy in my relationship, I was not happy with myself. I didn't feel as good on the outside as I felt on the inside. And hence, here I am now, 32lbs lighter and still going.

But, I still have the compulsion to buy loads of sweets, chocolates and crisps and just nom them all in one sitting and I just don't understand why.

Anyone (who took the time out to read my novel of a post) had a similar situation, or know anyone in a similar situation? I don't think there is a real cause, but my relationship with food has always been unhealthy.

Reading back through my own post, could it be that I just associate happiness and comfort with food? And if that's the case, why did I not wither away and die when I was unhappy in my last relationship? Was I trying to make myself happy by eating? And if that's the case, why did I eat so badly when I WAS happy in a relationship.

Sorry for the long post!

restricted eating can lead to bingeing. Telling kids they can only have x amount and thats it is fine for some but causes some to stockpile and eat too much too fast in later life die to a latent fear that someone will take it away.

I did it for a while as a teen, but got over it. Mum would watch every bite i ate and judge it, yet let my brother eat what ever he fancied. I wasn't overweight as a kid at all. I retrained - you can have as much of anything as you like, if you're willing to pay the price, both financially and healthwise. I'm not willing to pay the price, so I now self modify but know i CAN have it but I CHOOSE not to. That makes all the difference.