Looking for friends and support

Hey, my name is Anna. I've been on this site for a while now and have always loved it, but I have never been able to stick to it. I am one of the most stubborn people with calorie counting. I sort of hate it. But when I'm not keeping track I will literately eat a horse. (meaning A LOT of food lol) So i try and try again but always fail. I need support. And people I don't know, idk why but I think support from strangers is a different kind of support then with friends( not sure if that really makes sense i hope you get what I mean haha) Well anyways I need support. I'd love to loose a good 30 lbs and tone up but I haven't gotten anywhere. I am 180 and 5 '7 . I am reallyyy big boned and tall in general so that is a lot of my weight. I do think I distribute it really good for weighing 180, but there is still fat to be lost. I have a big bum, as does my mother. I don't mind it and I know if i loose weight I will look really good and not have a flat butt like most(not all). But it is just getting through the loosing weight process. I would love your encouragement and support through my journey, and i'd love to do the same for you! Thank you for your time -Anna