Disgusted w/ myself

I did it. I lost this weight slowly with a moderate caloric deficit and while training to run a half-marathon. Progress was so slow and it has hard to hit a calorie window. I have some manner of oppositional-defiance disorder. Any time I would reach my max, it made me want to eat more. I just hated every second of it. As soon as I was at my goal, I stopped paying attention.

Now, I am doing a fairly extreme deficit with no cardio. The weight is coming off quickly and I feel fantastic. I feel optomistic. I even feel excited about the maintenance phase and want to start sculpting my body and stuff.

I think that is the trick. You have to find a weight loss plan that you don't burn out on. It will be very different from person to person. There are definitely people who would burn out on my current plan and love the plan I burned out on.

You are not alone. I lost over 50lbs 2 years ago, and gained back 20. I am still not over it even though I have since lost 6 of those 20lbs.

First off - don't be disgusted with yourself - learn from it and move forward.

Second, I have done the exact same thing but re-gained far past what you re-gained and the fact that you came back to MFP means you recognize you need to do something about it.

I have come to realize that I have to be conscious of not only what I put into my body but exercise is the key to actually feeling good about myself. At first I was just calculating the food I was eating and lost some weight but now I am slowly getting myself into exercising and calculating the food I eat and I find I am making much better choices because I've worked hard and don't want to blow it.

Good luck in your health and just stay true to yourself and your body.

I have lots of excuses - I lost it very slow and very smart. Small daily changes, took almost 1 year to lose 50 pounds. Changed everything about how I viewed food & addictions. Then I broke out with some strange un-diagnosed rash all over my body. 4 specialists and 5 rounds of steroids later, I look up and have gained 22 pounds back. After that, I think I went into survival & comfort mode just eating to keep my mind off of the itching.

Steroids are the culprit my dear! My BF was on them for 5 years. He just held onto weight, whether he ate a lot or not. Then, when the doc finally switched his medication, the weight fell off of him. Don't worry about it too much. You know that you can do it, so just get focused again.

Don't be disgusted with yourself!! You can be disappointed, but not disgusted. It's not an easy road for anyone, but you did it before and you can absolutely do it again!! You didn't lose it over night and you didn't gain it back over night. So it'll take time. Just be patient, and set small goals...make lifestyle changes.

Just do the best you can every day. If you have a bad day, shake it off, let it go, and start fresh tomorrow!

You've got the whole MFP world to support you!! Friend me, and I will support you on your journey!

Good luck!

I agree with this completely and I'm in the same position. I figure at least I did it once and know how to lose it (and know I can do it!). Keep your chin up and don't be so hard on yourself. I look at this like a life long struggle and sometimes we'll have slip-ups due to medical reasons, emotional reasons, stress, job changes, etc...that might get in the way for a short period.

People have said this over and over...don't think of it as a diet but a lifestyle change.

My weight loss is going slow but steady this time around because I won't do anything I know I can't sustain for the rest of my life. I'm learning how to make my favorite foods with better ingrediant and when I really want the fatty foods I have smaller portions. There will always be setbacks and bumps along the road. My advice is to find an exercise you really really enjoy and stick to it. Build up to exercise just don't jump in doing 60 minutes or more 7 days a week (although some people can do it, but I get really sick if I don't get rest). Start at 3 days a week for 30 minutes or whatever you can do that you can stick to it. Meal planning is important for me and helps me stay on track. Cookinglight.com, skinnytaste.com, and eatingwell.com have some great recipes.

The most important thing is to listen to your body and do what works for YOU.

Let us make this a forever change and not a diet. Good luck!! :flowerforyou:

Don't be so hard on yourself. So many of us do the same thing. Let it go, shake it off and start over.

Six years ago, I lost 53.5lbs. I gained back 40 of it just by comfort eating, not exercising and slipping back into old bad habits. I started over again in October and I'm down 33 lbs. Seven more to go to get back to where I was. Another 75 to go after that.

You can do this. Just remind yourself how good you felt before and start making those changes. Good luck to you in your journey!!

I feel your pain...I had lost just under 100 lbs and fell off my routine because life got back in the way of health...I have watched the scales rise for the past 6 weeks...I am back up 12 pounds! It is scary how fast it can come back! Its been eye opening really...I am going to have to work harder to keep it off than I did to lose it in the first place...I too am disgusted with myself...but again...I am motivated to get back to my routine...and kick it up to the next level too! If I can do this...so can you...a bad meal is not a bad day...a bad day is not a bad week...see where I am going with this? (for me...a bad 6 weeks does not mean I am entitled to a bad year)...

Hi just dont give up . I lost ten and half stone 11 years ago and have kept it all except a stone off . im not saying its easy cos it really isnt but i feel so much better and never want to go to that dark place again ! Keep your chin up and get cracking ! Good luck

Count yourself lucky, I have seen women lose 50 and gail 80 on Jenny and Nutri!

I was 270, lost 70, gained back 30, then yo-yoed between 200 and 230.
The good news is that this MFP is the best diet (Consumer Report), so we are both on the right page.
Have now gone down to 218 and plan to stay with the program forever.

I really surprised myself and chose a vegan diet. No meat, no dairy, no eggs, and no wheat (intolerance).
I watched Forks over Knives --- Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead--- then read Eat to Live.
My blood pressure went up, got meds, and had "rare but serious side effects--signs of liver failure"
So figured that I should toss the toxic meds, lose the weight, and exercise to control blood pressure. Already working.
This time I am going to 140 and staying there!!!
See you on the other side!
You do deserve to look wonderful!