I'm Doing It and YOU can too!

On February 27th I was feeling very toxic - the kind that comes from giving in to junk food cravings and eating way too many calories. At one point, I actually ate over 4,000 calories in one day! That kind of eating leads to toxic thinking: a bad attitude, a lethargic body and depression.

I was frustrated and ready to quit. I felt that I could not possibly ever be thin, healthy and that I didn't deserve that privilege.

After reading people's stories on here about how well they were doing, how they overcame their own demons and successfully lost a LOT of weight - I decided to give it one last go.

I made three small goals for myself:
1) To get as close to my daily calories without going over every day (regardless of where I was going or what my food options would be)
2) To get myself moving
3) To give up junk food for 30 days (I heard that if you go without something for 30 days your body will stop craving it)

Today is day 6 without junk food. To be honest, I didn't think that I would make it this far. Surprisingly enough, I'm finding that my cravings for junk food are just about gone. No junk food combined with eating right and exercising: I'm starting to feel more energy, I'm sleeping better and I am feeling healthy! For the first time in my life I finally feel successful.

I grew up in a family of morbidly obese people. I am the kind of person that will eat just for the sake of eating. I looked to food for comfort in difficult situations. I also avoided being active because it forced me to deal with the reality of how out of shape I really was. Combine that with a very low self-esteem and constant rejection, and I was the perfect recipe for obesity. It wasn't until I realized that I was worthy of having a healthy life, that I was more than a size 18/20, that the person I wanted to be is the person I should be that things came into place for me.

Now I get picked on when I pass on dessert, and people tempt me with food. They say I'm wasting my time, but then I look at the massive calories they are consuming, their health problems and the road that awaits them and it just reminds me that I am better than that. I had to believe in myself first, and then the rest came into place. Sure, some days are hard - but when I get through a hard day and realize that I passed with flying colors - it feels SO GOOD!

I know that I have a long way to go before I hit my goal weight, but that's okay. Why? Because I'm doing it right now. Every day of successful eating and exercising is one day closer to that goal and one step closer to overall fitness. I am worthy of this being healthy and no matter who you are and where you come from - you are worthy too!