Just getting started... sort of

Hi all,

I've been a member of MFP for more than a year, but this is my first week of tracking on MFP and so far so good. I'm a WW member so it's taking a little getting used to going from points to actual calorie counts but it hasn't been too hard to figure out. I'm seriously contemplating leaving WW. I've lost 63 pounds on WW but over the last year I gained back about 15. I don't blame WW for that. If you follow the program it works, but the support part was really what was lacking. In my particular meeting, there was no one there I could relate to. I'm 36 with one young child and I was one of the youngest people in the group. I live in an older community so the group skewed towards retirees and almost-retirees. The slightly younger ones with kids had kids that were at the youngest, late teens. The meeting leader was very good at covering the days topic, but not so good at helping members talk through or figure out issues. She's only been at lifetime for two years and a leader for about one, so she's still a bit new to it.

Another thing is that I always felt pressure to perform. If I didn't lose weight that week then I failed. During meetings when we had our "celebrations" I tried to be the one to talk about the NSVs, but for the most part everyone announced their weight loss for that week. Not that they shouldn't be proud of what they's done, but it felt in part like competition. I felt inadequate when I didn't lose anything. That is in part self-imposed, but the environment in my meeting didn't help.

So, anyway, I'm here, giving MFP a try. I didn't go to WW weigh-in this week and I felt relief, I also have barely touched the WW site in the past few days. I think that's a sign.