Trying again/Ranting

I started eating right and working out and got down to about 125. IT WAS WONDERFUL! I loved it. I continued to stay healthy and work out up until my surgery 3/8/12. Then everything stopped. No more working out or sports. And I also stopped eating healthy. Now, a year later, I am bigger than I have ever been. I wear the biggest shirts I have and only several pants that used to be huge on me (thank God I kept them!)
My scale is horrible, but I'm pretty sure I am at least 150 or more. It says I'm only like 140.
I feel gross and nasty and definitely huge. I hate it. But I also hate not even trying. I do it for like two days then I stop. I would love to get my old body back.
It would also be nice to shock someone who I rarely see