confession of a binge eater

Sweet_Gurl_Next_Door
Sweet_Gurl_Next_Door Posts: 735 Member
in Motivation and Support
I realized that I've been undereating a lot in my calories. by feeling hungry all the time that is what causes my binge eating. I struggled for along time on this eating disorder but need to be real and honest about my struggle. a lady on cafemom referred me here and suggested I track my calories. I was astonished that it between 1,000 calories -1,100 calories sometimes even 900 calories. I never tracked the calories before and had no idea about eating so low in calories.

I decided to do something about this I enrolled myself in a course for 60 days online to help me deal with my eating correctly. as well as going to scoobysworkshop to eat my proper calories. I learned from them is 1504 calories. this is a huge step for me. I am upping my calories a lot from what I used too. I really want to lose this weight and get healthy. I need to do this for me.

I was embarrassed to admit my shortcomings fear of what others would think of this girl but I can't be tied down with fear of what others think. this is about me getting well and taking my life back.

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  • vlnalto
    vlnalto Posts: 64 Member
    Yay! I'm glad you're aware of the problem and are taking steps to do this in a healthy way now. Take advantage of the search bar in the forums - you can find a lot of great information from other users here as well.

    If you find you're having trouble reaching your new target, you might want to try planning your day ahead of time so you can see the bigger picture. Good luck - I know you can do this!
  • Sweet_Gurl_Next_Door
    Sweet_Gurl_Next_Door Posts: 735 Member
    thank you so much. my new calories are supposed to be 1504 calories. I have no idea how many meals/ snacks this will entail. tomorrow is my first day with the class. it did tell me the macros is to set 40% carbs 35% protein and 25% fats. beyond that I don't know.
  • Supern0va81
    Supern0va81 Posts: 168 Member
    You might be surprised to know that few people see binge eating as a disorder but it is a compulsion as difficult to break as any other. From your post on here though you can see that you are making huge headway by recognising it. I find that I have got better at avoiding binges by stabilising the number of calories I eat at each meal, opting for low sugar options, high fibre, high protein and drinking as much water as you need. (Pee nearly clear but not quite). Stay focused and positive - you're in the right place for excellent guidance and support!
  • EatYourVeg
    EatYourVeg Posts: 55
    The first step is awareness! Now that you're aware and you understand the consequences, you can take control of it
    So good on you!

    To relate to an eating disorder;
    I had Bulimia for 3-4 years (not sure exactly how long, it's a blurry time) and the one most hardest and difficult thing wasn't actually STOPPING, but was trying to escape the urges. I stopped a long time ago (4 years ago) but about 3 of those years I still had the urge to make myself sick.

    I'm past that now, it was like giving up drugs seriously :/


    Anyway, I only tell you this because any eating disorder is a struggle and you've already started to tackle it!
    I'm embarrassed too, it was pathetic of me to think I had control over it when it had complete and utter control over ME.

    Stay strong! x
  • gracielynn1011
    gracielynn1011 Posts: 726 Member
    I'm glad you are here. This is a great place to get support from people who have the same struggles. Some of them are already success stories and some of us are a work in progress.

    As far as how many snacks and meals, I have 3 meals (usually) and 2-3 snacks. I start off with a healthy low calorie breakfast (but sometimes I eat a little more or not so healthy). I have a snack mid morning, then lunch at around 12-12:30. Another snack around 3:30, then dinner at home. My dinner time varies depending on what time I get off work that day.

    My calories are at 1630 right now, so a little higher than yours, but the general idea of low calorie foods more often is the same.
  • Sweet_Gurl_Next_Door
    Sweet_Gurl_Next_Door Posts: 735 Member
    thanks this helps me as a guide to know how to eat properly. with my meals I only allowed myself 3 meals but big portions and on the snacks I either binged on them or didn't eat them at all. I want to do this properly. I am just beginning so all the support and advice I can get is appreciated. just not the kind that calls names or you dumb girl don't you know your starving yourself. I am already aware that is why I'm here. I welcome suggestions and am going to open my diary to public in a few minuets it will help better I think.
  • MSQUARED7
    MSQUARED7 Posts: 19 Member
    bump
  • cubbies77
    cubbies77 Posts: 607 Member
    Good for you. Taking the first step is very important. :)

    If you aren't comfortable with eating more food at first, try eating more calorie-dense food. For example, if you like having celery sticks as a snack, add some peanut butter or cream cheese to them. You could also use 2% milk instead of skim and have nuts and cheese as snacks.

    Once you're more comfortable with food and eating more in general, you can start going back to the lower-calorie versions.

    To keep from binging, I actually eat six small meals every day. Otherwise, I get too hungry and start raiding the kitchen. The only time I eat a regular meal is on weekends when my boyfriend I go out, usually on Saturday night. Since I know I'll be eating a full-size meal that day, I eat lighter meals the rest of the day.
  • Sweet_Gurl_Next_Door
    Sweet_Gurl_Next_Door Posts: 735 Member
    thank you. I like the first step approach as I am scared to eat a lot more food at once. so to incorporate the calorie dense foods first and slowly build my relationship with food is a practical approach. I like the idea on the milk also. my biggest binge is usually on cheese and breads sweets. these are my biggest triggers. I need to limit my dairy as it triggers the allergies as well.
  • Nelliebird1430
    Nelliebird1430 Posts: 108
    Congrats on acknowledging the problem and doing something about it! This place is filled with great people and ideas to help keep you on track! I used to be in the 1200 and under club desperate to lose weight with no avail... I’ve upped my calories, and eat back my exercise calories (mostly) I try to keep my NET calories to at around 1400. I don’t weigh on the scale, I find it’s a distraction and the fluctuations bother me, so I go for inches. Since upping my cals, I have noticed my body changing and have had people start to say “you’re losing weight aren’t you?” FINALLY! :laugh:

    Also, please be aware that in the first few days of upping your calories (if you are a scale person) you will most likely see your numbers go up at first. It's nothing to be alarmed about, it’s just your body adjusting. Give it a few weeks to catch up and start losing again!

    Cheers to your new you! :smile:
  • Sweet_Gurl_Next_Door
    Sweet_Gurl_Next_Door Posts: 735 Member
    okay thanks:) I am starting this today. I got hungry so I opted for cottage cheese with strawberries. my calories went up to 1,429 instead of the 1300 it was today. my stomach was growling non stop so I thought I better eat.
  • quirkytizzy
    quirkytizzy Posts: 4,052 Member
    We have so many people here who refuse to understand the damage they can do by consistently undereating. You are NOT one of those people! Thank you for being an MFP success story!
  • Sweet_Gurl_Next_Door
    Sweet_Gurl_Next_Door Posts: 735 Member
    you are most welcome. I opened my diary to public and welcome suggestions. I really want to get better.

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