Doing it for ME first

Hey Y'all. I am Jamie or sweetness. I am 27 years old and I have 2 beautiful daughters. My oldest Gabrielle is 10 (though I did not bear her I still claim her as my own), and my youngest Magdalena is almost 2. I have been heavy all my life my highest weight was 310 lbs. At this weight my doctor gave 1 year to live. So I had gastric bypass surgery on 7/16/2004. I lost weight rapidly and hit a plateau at 145 lbs. (a very comfortable plateau), However because I moved from Denver, CO to Austin, TX two months after surgery I was denied post-op care. The surgery was a success, but it was bound to fail because I never experienced "dumping syndrome". With the lack of this experience I was able to eat things I shouldnt have eaten (i.e sugar, and excessive alcoholic bevs). I divorced from my husband in 2005 and soon after I met my soulmate online. I packed up and moved to NH to be with him so he didn't have to leave his daughter. We have been together for 5 wonderful years now. I think finding him is why I need to lose weight again in 5 years I have gained 105 lbs. I am back up over 240 and I hate that. I am doing WW and my doctor has placed me on a 1300 calorie diet. Now that I am counting calories I get the urge to burn them off. My goal is to get back into my post - op clothes (size 14) which means I have 10 pant sizes to go and 100 lbs. I need to do this for ME so I can be there for my family! I know I can not do it alone so please help me build my MFP community!

Always ~ J