Depression, Death and Frustration

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I'm sorry to hear you are going through all this. Don't give up on your health and well being. Exercise will help you with your Depression! Your motivation should be your daughter, family and most of all yourself. It's not easy with everything in your life that is going on but I encourage you to Exercise for that depression you will feel better trust me :flowerforyou:

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In the last three weeks we have have two funerals and an ailing great grandmother who is on hospice. On top of that, for a week my computer has been in the shop and I haven't been able to track my counts.

I'm afraid that during this last week I might have gone over with mental calculations but the main issue is that I am depressed. I have been suffering depression all year long since my girl was born, and now we have all these deaths. I am an emotional eater. I say " screw it" and I just dive in. I did try to avoid it, but I'm not sure I was successful.

I'm tired all the time, exercise is the last thing on my mind. I know it's not an excuse, I just lack motivation. I'm just so frustrated with all this sadness.
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What you are going through sounds a lot like what I went through: within a 3-month span in 2007 my father-in-law passed away, my mother-in-law moved in with me and my husband, then my dad passed away. It was a lot to deal with and I experienced similar things to what you're describing, being tired all the time as well as being an emotional eater, with no motivation or even desire to work out or do much of anything else.

Have you talked to your doctor? It sounds like you could have postpartum depression, since you mention being depressed after the birth of your daughter. In my experience, talking to a doctor was very helpful; not only did she explain depression to me (for instance, I had no idea that depression could cause physical pain, and I thought my lack of motivation and energy was just me being lazy), but it was really nice just to have someone who would listen to me talk about my problems. Family is good, but if they are going through the same things you are, they aren't always there for listening to you when they've got their own stuff to deal with, you know? I hope that makes sense.

Don't beat yourself up about not being able to track things, it's only temporary. You'll get your computer back and you'll be tracking again. And don't beat yourself up about the emotional eating, either, or falling off the diet wagon...sometimes it happens, and when it does, get back up, dust yourself off, and start again. Personally, since I'm also an emotional eater, I found it helpful not to have things I would usually binge on, like chips, cookies, or candy, in the house at all. On my doctor's advice, I replaced those things with plain popcorn, grapes, and bags of those cut-up raw veggies and peanut butter. So when I did have a slip up, it wasn't too bad, and then I could feel better about treating myself to a piece of cake.

I hope you feel better soon, and remember to just do the best you can and hang in there.

*hugs, if you want them*