My strange motivators.

I find motivation from certain things that seem strange when I really think about them... but, whatever works right!

1) Skinny girls fighting. I use to be a bad fighter (this is not something that I am proud of) and I was very strong. Now, I watch fights between girls and they seem so dainty.. it makes me wonder what I looked like as a cow fighting skinny girls. (I don't want to fight anymore.. it's just something that I think about when I watch these dumb fights)
2) My fiancé. Mark is 140 pounds, 5' 7" so, he is a perfect size. He has HUGE muscles and I feel so large when it comes to him. I would love to have him be able to put his arms around me and actually feel small compared to him.
3) My daughter. Most people want to lose weight for their children because, they want to be there for them forever BUT, I have a different thought. When she is in school, she is NOT going to want to have her "big mommy" coming to meet her teachers, meet her friends or even meet her boyfriends in the future. I guess my motivation comes from me not wanting her to ever be embarrassed of her mommy.
4) This also has to do with my daughter. I never want her to feel like she can't bring boys around to the house. I was always embarrassed to bring boys over because, she doesn't want them to think that she is cursed to have the same body as I do (at the time, it will be "did")
5) Weather. Every summer for the past 4 years, I have worn sweatshirts and jeans because, I don't like my arms, I don't like my stomach and I am not a huge fan of my legs either. I am hospitalized at least once during the summer because of overheating. I want to be able to wear shorts and a t-shirt one day in the summer and actually feel attractive for once.
6) Meeting new people. I don't feel comfortable in front of anybody so, it's hard for me to make friends or even meet new people.
7) Bending over. Anytime that I try to bend over, my stomach touches my thighs and it makes me feel very large and just not flexible. I can' wait for the day that I can just bend over and feel like my stomach didn't just flop down.

If I think of more, I will post them but, these are my strange motivators!!!!