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Hi all,

I'm Kit - new here.

I'm 50, fat and fabulous. lol Or at least, I've always thought so.

Although I've been "pleasantly plump" my whole life and almost never what anyone would call slim - or even average - I was always active, very fit despite my plumpness and very happy and felt beautiful.

Enter surgically induced menopause two years ago.

Eating the same way and maintaining the same excercise level I have managed to gain 30 pounds and now my "pleasantly plump" figures has morphed into FAT. Not fat and fabulous, but the "ugly" kind of fat that most people sneer at.

It's amazing to me to discover how much of my self-worth has been tied up in feeling "attractive", and I must confess that knowing that kind of made me feel even worse about myself; so I tried to "rise above it" and "know that my value is in who I am" and "recognize all makes me feel worse about myself to know that my vanity has been such a definitive part of how I move through the world.

All my other accomplishments (great law career, burgeoning art career, happy, healthy adult children, a handful of genuine, important friendships and lots of friendly people in the mix, a wonderful marriage to a spouse that adores me); all paled beside this "fat and ugly" trope. It's affected my love life, my self esteem, my mood, my fitness level and my overall happiness. And my depression has been increasing.

I decided that the only thing that's gonna fix it, is if I *feel* attractive again.

And since I'm on weight losing path for the first time in my life, I've decided to really go for the gusto and try to reach a "healthy" weight rather than my usual "pleasantly plump" status. I figure if I don't do it now, I never will, so I might as well go for it!

Wish me luck please! And I wish you well in reaching your goals as well.

Cheers,

Kit