My weight is fine but I'm feeling so unhealthy :(

Hi,
I'm not doing this to lose weight as such, I weigh 43 kilograms (I am very short so this isn't as ridiculously low as it seems, although still lower end of average for my height I think).

My problem is with over-eating, binging I guess you would call it, and just that I feel like I am in a constant cycle of over eating, feeling guilty and sick, beating myself up, and then doing it again. It is depressing and all consuming. I worry about it to the point of distraction. I am always making plans and goals and then changing them, altering them a million times or breaking them and feeling terrible about myself as a result.

I used to exercise a lot more so didn't feel as guity about the over eating, but the exercise was a bit too obsessive. Now I have more things in my life (serious relationship, full time work and online TAFE study, family, friends etc) and so I am no longer 'obsessed' with exercise. I still like to do it but don't beat myself up anymore if I can't do it every day, and I tend to do more moderate pace walking and some yoga/pilates, rather than really hard core intensive workouts.

I actually feel like i need to go a bit back the other way and exercise more again, somewhere in between what i used to do and what i do now.

I am always feeling bloated and uncomfortable from eating too much unhealthy food. Yet I seem to have quite a busy social life and there's always food around.

In some ways i LOVE food, I love cooking, talking about it, preparing it, eating it, trying new restaurants etc. But in other ways I hate it because it causes me so much guilt and anxiety.

I figured this site might allow me to gain back a sense of power and control over what I eat and be and feel healthier again. Fingers crossed!

Is anyone else on this site in my position or is everyone else just trying to lose weight? I just want to maintain my weight but get healthier habits and stop worrying and feeling guilty abut food all the time.