eating disorders

You can seek professional support without involving your family, but you will need their support at some point.

I was never officially diagnosed an ED, but in high school/early college I would participate in disordered eating/starving with a friend. I was lucky enough to stop the behaviors for the most part before any damage to my body. I still find myself drawn in by thinspo & some pro ana sites that can be triggering for me

Certainly not an expert on recovery, but have you shared your struggles with your husband? He can be a solid foundation for you and keep you accountable when you need it. My husband knows about my struggles and it's something that he checks in on me about every now and then to make sure that I'm fueling myself well and not doing this for unhealthy reasons.

I would also suggest some sort of professional counseling, there are those that specialize with ED's, even if they're not, a counselor or psychologist can help you to identify the emotions and situations that trigger your self-destructive behaviors. It can be an incredible relief to tell everything to someone you know is going to be honest and compassionate.



Edit: Counseling really isn't as expensive as a lot of people think it is, a lot of insurances will cover a good portion of the cost.

I had an eating disorder, and to be 100% completely honestly, if I didn't go through therapy & get other professional help, I would still have one. I didn't want to involve my family either, so going the way of professional help is the best way to go instead of doing it by yourself because you need to have *some* type of support.
My family would have never understood. I think that only people who have had eating disorders will understand what you're going through. If you do find professional help, search for someone with a specialty in treating people with eating disorders. They know what they're doing. :flowerforyou:

It's very true that it's very hard for people who haven't had an eating disorder to understand what you are going through. They can say extremely insensitive things without trying to just because they don't understand. And sometimes because they don't understand it they may actually just walk away. (Not to say your family will do that) But yes you definitely need support.


And btw I am happy to hear that you have gone through recovery, passion.

celinarae94 : Thank you so much. :-)
Mamalea32 : Whatever you decide to do, there is so much support here on MyFitnessPal, I've noticed! So even the small things like an online community can be really good support!

Wow. Thanks for sharing. If you don't mind... Did you ever pinpoint the reason for you ED? What caused you to become this way?

Well I'm still in treatment, but I think that all begin in the school when the gym teacher have the "good" idea to weigh us and I have more weight that my schoolmates (1.57 metros (61) and 60 kilos (132lb)... and I cried a lot, but I wasn't fat, maybe a little overweigh, but she never take the fat% and I used to do sports, so maybe it isn't only fat.

That day was the worst day in my life and I was the fatty girl of the class...and what I did do? eat, that was my terapy and my family always say...hey!! stop eating!!! you look like a cow or when I went to the pool my father sometime said me: "look a Whale in the pool" (I was the whale)

Anyway, that is the past, now I'm better, but I think that the hospitalization help me a lot (not for my wallet XD) and also the support from my husband and family.

I hate the BMI personally... how it focuses so much on your weight and height. BF % is much more accurate.. along with actual measurements and general appearance. I can't be "properly diagnosed" due to my BMI. My BMI is around 22. So I'm still a healthy weight. And I'm sure most of you know under 18.5 is underweight. But yet my bf hates giving me back massages because he just gets a protruding spine and ribs etc. Everybody's body is different.
I've been sick for a lil while now. And now I have fluid in my knee joint due to torn cartilage. When I said "I didn't injure myself" the ER doctor looked at me like I was absolutely silly. But truth is my body is malnourished and probably just deteriorating.

Now I have 2 guys on facebook who, after I posted a status saying how I now can't do my usual cardio workouts etc., telling me "oh you'll really be a heffer now" and "watch those legs really blow out".. I was blown away. I was already so upset and scared about weight gain due to this and now that? Sigh.

Sorry everyone. That's been on my chest all morning. I haven't told my bf or anyone else about it 'cause I dunno if I should say anything or wait for them to notice.

I thank everyone who replied to my post. I have my 1 st appointment in two days from now. My mom observed my issues and took it upon herself to make me an appointment with a specialist. I am most excited that the specialist uses a therapy dog as her partner. I really dont want to gain weight, but i am looking forward to becoming a happier version of myself. I want to be the best role model for my kids and they already noticef that "mom is really good at eating healthy" so its a matter of time tbat they might pick up my obsession!

I'm so happy for you! Stay strong! And best of luck on getting better.. just remember it's going to be very hard some days but those are just bumps in the road to your recovery