Down 25 pounds, lost the depression weight! :D

So excited that a milestone has come that I planned on allowing myself to post in this section. Here's my backstory.

In the Fall of 2012, I went away for my first semester as a college freshman. It was cool too, because one of my three very best friends from high school was coming to the same college (no we didnt plan it, nor was the other one going to the school a reason for either of us choosing it, it was just a huge coincidence we both loved the school). We had to decided not to room with each other, in order to meet new people and also, not drive each other nuts. I was really excited to start this journey.

So the end of August came, and it was time to move in. For the first month and half or so, things were pretty great. My best friend and I had both met each others roommates (and suitemates, we were both living with 4 other girls) and we all seemed to get along pretty well, and hung out pretty much every night, and I was really starting to feel like this was our "group". Just as I finally started to consider this place my new home, things got REALLY ugly REALLY fast.

I was on Twitter one day, and stumbled upon my roommate's twitter. Innocently, I clicked on it to follow her. To my horror, I saw that she had been tweeting unbeliveably rude, hurtful, and most importantly, BEYOND FALSE things about me. I began to scroll through, and saw that there were a huge amount of these, not one of them true, and it had been going on way longer before I found out. I told my best friend about it, and she had said she didnt follow my roommate's twitter so she didnt see them either. I couldn't understand why my roommate was being so mean to me. A lot of people say it sounds like cyberbullying...it never occured to me that's what it was. Do you guys think its what it sounds like?

All of a sudden, my best friend told me my roommate was going to her and her roommates and talking about me to them. They all said I should try to talk to her, but it went nowhere. She had this false opinion about me and it wasnt changing. And for some reason, she changed everyone but my best friend's opinion on me. All of a sudden, these girls didnt want me around (and weren't afraid to say it either, one of them rudely asked me "can you leave" when I was in their room when she knew I was upset). It made my best friend be in a really awkward place, because she was friends with these girls, and me. I basically ended up only having my best friend and two other people as friends, who were busy a lot so most nights when people went out with their friends, I would be in my room by myself, crying. I didn't understand. How could people who I was nothing but sweet to be so mean to me and treat me like garbage? I left the school after the first semester because I was getting really depressed, and am much happier now that I did.

When I first wentaway, I did definitly have some extra weight I could have benefited from losing. I was around 175.Unfortunately, when all of the horrible stuff started happening, I ate a lot of my feelings. I put my starting weight on here as 195, denying that I had in fact seen the number 200 on the scale.

I found myfitnesspal and fell in love. I started tracking responsibly around February, and today, I am proud to say I am back down to 175. The 25 pounds I gained because of people is now gone, and in a way I feel I showed them. My summer goal weight is 160, and then I plan on trying to get down to 150.

I just wanted to say thank you to my amazing friends who always provide me with laughs, and lots of amazing motivation. And anyone else on this site, your topics, questions, and funny posts and answers have helped tremendously.

LOVE YOU GUYS!!