Inner Demons…

Life_is_Good
Life_is_Good Posts: 361 Member
edited September 2024 in Motivation and Support
The past few years, I have been reflecting on my life… wanting to change some things, wishing some things would stay the same, & hoping to lock those skeleton doors for good.

In my twenties, I was beautiful (body & all), and yet when I looked in the mirror, even then, I didn’t think so – boobs were too small, hips too big, whatever.

Now I look in the mirror & wish I had that 20 year old body back. Criticizing myself for how I (so irresponsibly) have let myself go. I have even apologized to my husband (who loves me dearly- the way I am) for not looking like that anymore. Those inner demons still taunt me & point out my every flaw.

My point being… I am my own worst critic. My family and friends love me for me. I am living better, loving better & looking better day by day – mentally, I have to convince myself of that – the physical stuff is easy.

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  • Joscelle
    Joscelle Posts: 93
    I totally hear ya! What I'd give to be my "20 year old fat" version and though I have made progress in the past 75 days, I still see so much room for improvement. Let's remind us to take it easy on ourselves, ya?
  • sbarham
    sbarham Posts: 44 Member
    Wow, I don't think I could have said it any better. There are so many seasons in my life where I've been healthier, looked better, weighed less...and yet I can never recall a time when I was happy with myself. I am most definitely my own worst critic and a loved unconditionally by those in my life. I hope one day I can be comfortable ME, the way God made me. That my security won't be in what the world says I should look like or be, but in my Creator and the wonderful family and friends He has blessed me with. Thanks for sharing and good luck on this journey! It's one day at a time!!!
  • TabiHerbalifeCoach
    TabiHerbalifeCoach Posts: 691 Member
    I know excatly how you feel, I am still in my 20's but I got married at 19 and during that time I always though I was fat not tone enough something, then I had two kids/ two csections and weigh significatly more than I did then. I am now divorced, my ex is with a woman he had an online affair with for 2 years, who is about the size of a tooth pic, I am now a single mom and constantly wonder if i'm enough. of course people take chances to point out my flaws, and that only makes it worse. I really really know how you feel i'm trying to work through it too. You ever need to talk i'm here, we can support each other.
  • Ten10
    Ten10 Posts: 223 Member
    Although I am in my 20's I have never learned to love and appreciate "me" I always wish this was smaller or that was bigger. I wish that I could just be satisified. While there is nothing wrong with self improvement I do think that I have an unhealthy relationship with my body and self esteem has plummeted because of it. You are right we are our own worst critics, but I do hope to see and love myself the way others do .
  • Holton
    Holton Posts: 1,018
    I think we are our own worst critics! There is something about "maturing" (growing older) that frees us up from so much though, that I am certainly finding myself happier with my appearance (for my age!!!) than I ever had been. If you are loved, then you have everything! Greet yourself each morning in the mirror and tell yourself that! You look fabulous by the way. Good luck on your journey!
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