Extreme emotions during exercise

I'm so glad I'm not alone here! This happens to me when I workout really hard. Today, I did P90x Plyometrics, and the first ten minutes I kept having to stop to blow my nose, lol. I think it is just a release of endorphins. It's probably very cathartic. The last time I got a massage I cried too. I tend to internalize my stress, and man do I have alot of stressors at the moment. It makes me feel like a big wussy, but I do think it's a positive thing.

Sometimes in the middle of my run, when I am so deep in my thoughts and having make believe conversations that I have forgotten that I am running, I'll start to cry, or get very angry.

The only time I've ever cried, which was actually a couple of weeks ago was after 45 minutes of weight lifting, a quick 20 minute run and then going straight into the "Gameday" workout from Insanity The Asylum on a 103 degree day. I had already worked out hard enough before I had started Gameday with my weight program and pushed myself super hard during the Asylum. I can't remember what part of the workout it was at, but about 17 minutes left of the video and I don't know what happened, I just pushed so hard and was cussing at Shaun T haha, and we finally got a little smidgen of a break and I started to cry. I was out of breath and stopped myself from really crying but ended up leaning my head up against the wall face first looking down pointing towards the air conditioner vent lol and said outloud, "WTF am I doing?" That was the day I knew I was getting the results I wanted physically AND mentally . I may of worked out a little too close together that day in the hot heat but it was totally worth it. Asylum is amazing and I use both of the Insanity workouts more for my brain than I do for my body lol. Its like therapy to me and pushes me every single time, and I have completed them both 3 times now and it's still like doing it for the first time sometimes. I can easily make it through the workouts but it never gets easier for me. I still gasp for air on occasion lol. I'd like to be as smooth and as fluid and Shaun. That guy is a machine, he's not even real lol.

I used to have uncontrollable crying fits when I did yoga. And not like spiritual practice yoga, just big old gym yoga.

I think it was one of the few times during that period of my life where I actually let myself relax and breathe, and everything I was forcing down the rest of the time- stress, anger, tension, worry, would just come flying out.

Think about how we hold big knots of stress in our backs or necks- I would guess you hold it somewhere that has to move when you run. Hopefully you'll work it all out and it will stop!

While many guys go to the gym carrying a water jug, I bring a box of Kleenex. Truth.

I have noticed that about 15 minutes into working out, i become very emotional. Alot of times i will start crying and cry for about 5 minutes while continuing to exercise. The emotions are always extreme negative ones, i never get overly happy feeling, although i always feel better after my workout. If my S/O starts a small arguement during my workout routine, My emotions feel like they are in OVERDRIVE and i tend to over-react to say the least.

I have read other threads on here about how elated people feel while exercising, because they are so proud of themselves for finally doing it, etc.... That is not the kind of emotion i am talking about here. Its almost as if i have no control over my feelings and am just plunged into negative emotional overload and suddenly cant stop crying. This feeling always passes after about 5 or so minutes and im fine the rest of the workout.

Does anyone else experience this type of reaction to exercising?

Do you think its just the way my body deals with releasing my endorphines or something of that sort?

how do you deal with emotion on a normal basis? Are you one who normally suppresses it?

I don't have this as much now, as I used to back when I started. But for a while there, when things were really hard for me personally, it was not uncommon for me to lose control after a particularly tough workout. Now that I am managing the emotion and stress better, I don't have that happen as often.