Depression Related NSV

You go girl! I deal with depression too. I haven't had any episodes in over a year. I understand how you're feeling -- especially with cutie animals to keep you company. Keep it up! :flowerforyou:

Good going!

:flowerforyou: Woot woot! 3&4 are so important for avoiding that spiral back into the dark places - keep it up!

I finally confessed to my parents how I was feeling, mid-July last year. I had put up a good front whenever I was around people but at home I was pretty much a basket case. Didn't want to do anything but ignore life and immerse myself in TV. I was eating my emotions and gaining weight. I didn't care about my bills and ignored all collection calls, didn't answer the door whenever someone rang the bell before about 7pm because I was afraid it'd be someone there to give me papers. It was just easier to be an ostrich about my financial situation than to face it. In the end, I did lose my home, but honestly it has been the best thing. One of the contributing factors was how unhappy I was about buying the place and dealing with the ignorant, rude, inconsiderate neighbors. I'm so much happier in the past 3 months living in my little apartment than I was for 4 years in the townhome.

I went to see my doctor in July and nearly 3 months after I started on an anti-depressant, I started MFP. I'm eating better and working out 5 days a week. I've been more successful losing weight this time around than before and I attribute a lot of it to a better mental status. I have an appointment with my doctor in a couple weeks to talk about if/when would be possible to stop the medication.

My NSV is that I went outside 3 days in a row! It's been a long time since I've been outside.

That is excellent news! I don't much like going outside by myself. I'm not too bad in town, but in the countryside I feel very vulnerable. I usually wait for my husband to come outside with me, even just into the garden.

Since I lost weight a real phobia about music in restaurants and shops has got much better- almost gone. It was stopping me living a normal life. I. Still don't like it, but I don't have a panic attack.

Great posts! I don't know what an "NSV" is but I've suffered from depression all my life. Was on anti-depressants for 15 years, quick taking them because they quit working, and then had some major, bad life changing events that spiraled me into a black hole. For way too long, I've sat in my room, watching TV, playing computer games and drinking. A little over a year ago I had lost so much weight from not eating (alchohol abuse) that I developed numerous health problems and alcoholic neuropathy - which is nerve damage in the feet and is very painful. After many doctor's visits and confessing to family about my drinking problem, I quit drinking and started trying to eat again (food was repulsive). But I fell into a hole again, started drinking again and was chasing it with sweet ice tea instead of diet pepsi and proceeded to become a recluse again. I've gained 40 pounds since my relapse and was at a point that I would not leave the house, mostly because I was drunk all the time and also didn't have any clothes that fit. This was all because of depression and alchohol just makes it worse.

Last week I had an epiphany of some sort, quit drinking, suffered through 2 days of withdrawal and started my life over. They key seems to be that first thing in the morning I get up and take my B Complex Vitamins - these always make me feel better and seem to take care of any depressive mood immediately. I take several other supplements as well, but these seem to be the most important ones. I've been sober for over a week, went out and bought some new clothes, have been up and active, and started changing my eating habits so I can lose this weight. I have never been this heavy in my life. So I consider this a HUGE success - I working towards losing the weight but what gets me through each day is knowing that I'm not drinking. The drinking, gallon of sweet tea every day and bad food choices are what put on the weight, so not doing those things will hopefully take it off.

I am SO PROUD of ALL of you !!!!!!! I too am a severe depression/anxiety/bi polar/ agorophobia survivor !

I know how hard it is to answer that door, or phone, or go out of the house.

I am now losing weight, taking only 3 meds instead of 14, and I go out and about all the time.
I am a functioning person ! (Thank God) !

It is a struggle every day but so worth it when you do.

Add me if you want.

I just want you all to know I am so proud of you !!! Keep up the GREAT work !!