What's your particular inspiration? Photo? Quote? Visual?

I have a photo I had taken with a celebrity I have liked for over 20 years. I had a major crush on him and to be honest it hasn't gone away. I met him 2011 while working at a local Theatre, when he found out I was a fan he invited me to his dressing room for a photo. I was so happy! I was there 3 days on work experience. I couldn't eat because of being around him, I lost 12 lb in 3 days and 16 lb by the end of the week! For the photo he put his arm around me and was so close his head was pulling on my hair. It was the first time in over 20 years a man has put his arm around me and I wasn't stood there thinking, "oh no he can feel how fat I am" I was just so happy and shocked at being there that it didn't enter my head until later. I went with a crush and came home in love ...Lol He was really really lovely. He is not a huge well known celebrity but I don't care, he made me feel special. That photo comes with me to the gym and to jobs where I'm nervous or anxious. It really helps me to push myself harder. It makes me want to be a normal healthy size and happy with myself. To be honest I think I should just go on tour with him, I would be slim in no time. :-)

My goal now is to get another photo taken with him when I have lost weight (if he will let me.) I'm going to buy an evening gown too, I have a vision of myself out for the evening with my hair in a particular style, a red evening dress and going to the Theatre. I'm definitely motivated right now.

I have a photo (see my profile) of myself in a blue dress in college. I kept the dress because I want to be able to wear it again. It is a size 12, currently I am a size 16. I can't even get it over my big old rear right now, but I'm working towards rocking it again!