help :(

No body can motivate you unfortunately it's all on you. Just take solace in the fact that you did NOT gain 5 kg of fat in 5 days. It's mostly water weight.

Unfortunately, only you can figure out why you've lost control.

I always recommend starting with a look at your diet. Make sure that you aren't cutting calories too drastically or omitting the foods that you love. Everything in moderation.

If that's all good, then you need to look at stressors in your life. Job, family, etc. Maybe it's just a temporary thing that will blow over. Maybe this is your natural solution when you get stressed out and you need to find a new way to deal with things. Either way, figure out what's going on with you and your body and you'll be a lot closer to getting control again.

Well, you are here, that's a start! I think you know what you need to do, and you just want encouragment. So I say, GO YOU!!!

Weigh yourself every morning before eating and after going tot he bathroom. Write notes on your diary on what was different the previous day that might have increased the weight, which is actually water because you need to eat 3500 calories over your daily TDEE to gain 1lb. Then you are going to see patterns developing. Salty foods, exercise, new exercise workout, etc. are some stressors that increase water retention. Keep a diary and write down thoughts on what makes you binge. Surround yourself with more healthy food, drink water, think what you can do to occupy yourself and forget food. Approach it in a scientific manner and explore yourself on what the triggers and stressors are.