Ive Hit Rock Bottom With Depression & Anxiety...Help

booty4dookie
booty4dookie Posts: 9
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I was diagnonsed with anxiety, mood disorder, and add last month. ive been taking 3 different medications for all disorders for over a month now. my depression and anxiety and obsessive thoughts haven't gotten better. I still isolate myself from friends and family and I still stay inside everyday in bed. I don't have energy to take a bath or comb my hair or brush my teeth. I don't change clothes since I never go outside. I feel horrible anxiety when I think about how I haven't been contacting my family and friends and I feel so anxious everytime I want to reach out to them. I worry how bad ive hurt them and I worry what they think of me. I worry about what everybody thinks of me. all I want to do is drink to shut up the noise in my brain even though its not healthy. I just feel like ive been dealing with these mental issues as long as I can remember and its always gotten worse every couple of years and Ive tried so many diff meds every couple years and nothing ever helps. I force myself through the anxiety eventually to see family and friends and I feel better than im making them happy by seeing them and then a couple weeks later I slowly start avoiding everyone again and I start feeling like a horrible bad person again and now I know im no longer making them happy and I feel even worse. maybe I have like depression that cant be helped no matter the treatment. Ive had counselors ive vented to people that I trusted nothing helps. im tired of feeling so guilty inside and im tired of all the noise in my brain telling me how horrible I am to everybody and how unhappy I make everybody im tired of gaining weight because of depression and comfort eating im tired of letting fear control my life but I don't know how to ever recover....any advice?

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  • lilpoindexter
    lilpoindexter Posts: 1,122 Member
    Dude, your problems are bigger than we can help you with here. I don't know if your mom is around, and if you have a relationship with her, but when I got divorced ( the lowest point ever) i started by talking to her. Please reach out to someone soon.
  • fitguy44
    fitguy44 Posts: 6
    Take your medications daily , see if they are working if not find a better Doctor in your area to treat it and do the things that must be done and maybe these videos by Eric Thomas can help you bring more power and motivation

    http://www.youtube.com/user/etthehiphoppreacher/

    Do watch them all !
  • nomeejerome
    nomeejerome Posts: 2,616 Member
    Seek a professional
  • RCottonRPh
    RCottonRPh Posts: 148
    Honestly, weight loss needs to take a back seat to your mental health right now. Put all your energy and focus into getting emotionally better. Seek professional help and follow all the advice the professional gives you.
  • HollisGrant
    HollisGrant Posts: 2,022 Member
    I was diagnonsed with anxiety, mood disorder, and add last month. ive been taking 3 different medications for all disorders for over a month now. my depression and anxiety and obsessive thoughts haven't gotten better. I still isolate myself from friends and family and I still stay inside everyday in bed. I don't have energy to take a bath or comb my hair or brush my teeth. I don't change clothes since I never go outside. I feel horrible anxiety when I think about how I haven't been contacting my family and friends and I feel so anxious everytime I want to reach out to them. I worry how bad ive hurt them and I worry what they think of me. I worry about what everybody thinks of me. all I want to do is drink to shut up the noise in my brain even though its not healthy. I just feel like ive been dealing with these mental issues as long as I can remember and its always gotten worse every couple of years and Ive tried so many diff meds every couple years and nothing ever helps. I force myself through the anxiety eventually to see family and friends and I feel better than im making them happy by seeing them and then a couple weeks later I slowly start avoiding everyone again and I start feeling like a horrible bad person again and now I know im no longer making them happy and I feel even worse. maybe I have like depression that cant be helped no matter the treatment. Ive had counselors ive vented to people that I trusted nothing helps. im tired of feeling so guilty inside and im tired of all the noise in my brain telling me how horrible I am to everybody and how unhappy I make everybody im tired of gaining weight because of depression and comfort eating im tired of letting fear control my life but I don't know how to ever recover....any advice?

    I think you should go to the hospital tonight and print out your post here or tell them you can't get out of bed. It sounds like you can't function at all right now and maybe should be hospitalized short term to get your medicines adjusted. Here's a long-distance hug. Call somebody tonight or go to the ER.
  • perdita_bugg
    perdita_bugg Posts: 4
    I was in the same boat as you. Well, as much as I can gather, we all suffer differently. It was only last month that I acknowledged how depressed I was/still kind of am. I didn't leave bed except to cross the street and buy junk food or sometimes go to class. Between losing my job because I didn't fit in (no really, that was the reason for my termination), a death in my family and an unsupportive spouse, I wised every night I could just fall asleep and not wake up. I hit rock bottom.
    I had/have to get better.
    It's hard, really hard, but I set small goals for myself. Week one: get up, make my bed (this was important to me because then I wouldn't get back in it) drink 32 oz of water and have breakfast. That's it.
    Week two:same as week one, but I started just texting my friends and family. I was surprised at how supportive they were, though I should not have been, they were my loved ones after all. I also started working on my resume.
    Week three: same as one and two plus I added one social outting and cut my junk food intake in half. I also started "just" stretching to music that made me happy.
    Week now/four: again, same as above plus calorie counting. My mood has improved enough to do two social outtings and four bike rides. I listen to music that makes me happy and keep pace to the beat.
    I know it's hard and can seem overwhelming, but getting into a routine and getting outside is so important to an improved mood.
    J.K.Rowling said something along the lines of "I uses rock bottom as the solid foundation to build my success upon.".

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