feeling grateful to be at a weight you once cried about?

hannahpistolas · June 2013

I remember little anorexic b*tch me thinking I was HUGE at 125.

Now, I would sell my soul for my postpartum body back! (Wouldn't give up my kid... Just, you know, would d*mn myself in Hell for it.)

sparkellet · June 2013

I can totally relate!!! I would give anything to go back to what used to be "my danger zone." I also wish I could go back in time and make myself appreciate my body more. I was NOT satisfied with myself in my profile pic, now I would give anything to go back to that!

A_Fit_Mom · June 2013

I know what you mean. I hated being in the 150's years ago, but how I am ecstatic to be 159.

auteurfille22 · June 2013

Yes! When I first passed into the 140s, I felt horrible about myself. I didn't admit my weight to anyone; I was ashamed. Now coming down from about 160, I am ecstatic to be where I am (143.5). I look at my body now and I'm so proud of it - the same shape roughly that I had back before when I was in the 140s and felt terrible.

knitbytes · June 2013

I don't recall my weight at the time, but I have a clear & distinct memory from the time I was 14 or 15. I was looking in a full length mirror, wearing only underwear and a bra, and I was looking at my teeny pooch of a tummy and thinking "god, I'm so fat."

...

Yeah.

Sparlingo · June 2013

I was just thinking this -- when I was dating my now-husband, I had him look at the scale when I got on it, because he wanted to know how much I weigh (he was just curious), and I was terrified of the scale and "knew" that I was fat (yeah, I wasn't).

A few weeks later I asked him what that number was. 118 lbs (I'm 5'0"). I cried. I felt like I was spiraling out of control (dramatic much?). I had such an unrealistic view of my body!

After a few years of content married weight gain, inactivity and a pregnancy, I was 164 lbs at 5 months postpartum.

Now I'm about 120 lbs, and very happy with my body! I do still want to lose 10 lbs and focus on building some muscle, but that doesn't mean I'm unhappy with where I'm at.

I don't have any pics from when I was 118 lbs and 5 years younger, but on the right of this progress comparison pic was me a week or so ago. I wish I could go back and slap young me in the back of the head.

jrbb03092 · June 2013

I think about this often. I'm 5'8" and I always felt fat even when I wasn't.

It started with my classmates being shorter and much lighter than I was at an early age and my mother always dieting and even when I was 108, I still thought I was fat. At 18 and 121, I was happy (briefly) and then I started gaining weight.

I sat at 127 and then 138 for a really long time (my body seemed to like both those set points) but I was always binging and then dieting and then binging again. I think if I could have been really happy (and seen myself realistically) at any of those weights, I would have stayed there.

Now my goal is to get back to 138 but having realized that I can work out and eat 2000 calories a day and not starve myself and still lose weight, I think I'd like to weigh as much as I can (within a normal weight range) while fitting into a clothing size that makes me happy (maybe around a 10) and while still enjoying a reasonable amount of healthy food, etc.

melfitnesspal13 · June 2013

I am a lot less insecure at my current weight (highest) that when I was weighing 185 lbs. My goal right now is to get back to exactly that, 185! :drinker: :drinker: Now I am 20+ yrs older and want to lose weight to be fit, not because I don't love myself or care about what any random guy thinks about me. My husband loves me at all my weights/shapes.....good question.

wpbmommy1 · June 2013

kind of had the opposite problem. When I was 125 I cried because I was angry that couldn't GAIN weight and I was downing liquid meal supplements in addition to eating like it was going out of style. Yep, two kids and sixty pounds later I wanted to kick myself...repeatedly. I don't think I'll ever get to that weight again but if I do, I sure won't complain about it.

justneedmotivation · June 2013

lol yeah I'm 5'2.

elisa123gal · June 2013

the stories show a few things; to want to be as skinny as one was in high school or college is funny to me.. i don't think people are really done growing..especially men until late 20's. yet we all pressure ourselves to get back to that.

also..shows how fat just creeps up over the years and we settle for being heavier and heavier.

MyJourney1960 · June 2013

oh yes.

I remember passing the 150 mark and being very unhappy about it. i WISH i were there now, or close to there.

I mean - i am going to be happy when i get to the other side of 200! how pathetic does that sound? and yet, it will mean a 30 lb loss!

soldiergrl_101 · June 2013

I know how you feel, I always hated being 160 now I would be happy just to see the 170s again lol

kimbtaylor1 · June 2013

I know how you feel. When I was 15 and first got my drivers license I said I was 130lbs (total lie I was around 145) but I refused to change the weight ever since. I'm 33 now and it still says 130. I'm not at 129 and the last time I was really this size was in 5th grade many many many moons ago! I use to cry all the time because I was the biggest girl in my class but now if I could only reach the 115 mark (what I weighed in 4th grade) I would be happy. And before anyone says it...I'm not trying to be as small as an elementary student....I was just a VERY overweight kid!

yamsteroo · June 2013

Yep - when I hit 30 I thought I was letting myself go because I tipped the scale at 120 (I'd always been about 110) but now my goal weight isn't even as low as 120!

I have to agree with elisa123gal in that my body is completely different to what it was 15yrs ago so my weight goals *should* be different. When I started out in February I said something about not wanting to be a fat old lady, but I'd accept the old part. Equally, I don't want to be a scrawny old lady - I'm going to settle for fit old lady and if that means I'll weigh 10 or 15lb more than my 'nightmare' weight, then so be it

alisonlynn1976 · June 2013

I remember being embarrassed when my driver's license said 175. Now I'm almost back down to that again and really happy about it.

...and also I thought I was fat in high school when I weighed around 120. That seems to have been a common experience for women.

silkcat · June 2013

There's a photograph of me, aged about 20, that makes me feel very sad. Now I look at it and see a slim, healthy looking young woman - then I felt fat and ugly just because I wasn't skinny and had boobs. I'm now 4 stone heavier!

cityjaneLondon · June 2013

Yes, I went to Weight Watchers when I was 157 lbs when I was in my early 30s. I thought I was huge! I am 5 ft 5 ins. I lost 28lbs, but later put it all back and much more. Another session at WW starting at 168. Getting down to 140. I felt ok then, but really had the 112 that I was married at when I was 20 in my head. That was my 'ought to be' weight for years until I realised that would be too light for me as I got older. More diets, more temporary success, settling around 153. Then a huge weight gain up to 197. Oh dear. - seriously bad health and mobility at that weight. Awful. Now, at 63, I know I should not be my 20 yr old weight. I have lost 45 lbs and have been working on my fitness. I feel so much better and look slimmer than I weigh. I am currently 152 lbs and want to lose a few more, but not too much. To think I once thought I was really fat at this weight!

PinkEarthMama · June 2013

I was furious when I hit 140. Now 140 is my GOAL.

HappyElizabeth · June 2013

Yes!!! This weight loss journey has definitely made me think a lot about the meaning of the word "gratitude."

feeling grateful to be at a weight you once cried about?

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