Body Dismorphic Disorder

SisterhoodoftheShrinkingPants
SisterhoodoftheShrinkingPants Posts: 474 Member
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That was me at 16. I thought I was fat. I would eat and then "try" to make myself throw up. I hated myself because I couldnt do it. Im posting this topic because I saw a thread where a beautiful young girl was beating herself up for not being able to "stick" with healthy eating despite the fact she wasnt actually over weight. It reminded me of me at this age. I honestly believe that all the games I played with food and trying to be "skinny" when I clearly already was DUH, contributed to my eventual weight gain. Years of starving myself through lack of food and drug abuse broke my metabolism.

So much of the success or fail of this thing is IN THE MIND. I may be losing fat but if Im not GAINING MYSELF (or awareness) its pointless. I couldnt love myself then (at a healthy weight) and I certainly did not love myself obese, so whats the cure?

Self love. Today I DO love me. And I show myself that love by kicking negative people (even family) to the curb, eating well (because my body NEEDS fuel and deserves the best kind) and exercising so that I have strength from within and without. Just wondering how many other people on here have experienced this nagging feeling of imperfection even before there was a real weight issue.

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  • SisterhoodoftheShrinkingPants
    SisterhoodoftheShrinkingPants Posts: 474 Member
    trying to upload pic
  • Espressocycle
    Espressocycle Posts: 2,245 Member
    Very sad.
  • SisterhoodoftheShrinkingPants
    SisterhoodoftheShrinkingPants Posts: 474 Member
    wow, finally got the pic to upload. Im surprised I dont hear more about this topic on MFP. Surely Im not the only one here lol!
  • IamUndrCnstruction
    IamUndrCnstruction Posts: 691 Member
    I have a picture on my desk of when I was 28(ish)....I will be 40 next month. I look at that pic and remember thinking I was fat at the time. Funny that I use it as motivation to return to that weight now. It is so sad that we strive for this idea of perfection and even if we reached it, it wouldn't be enough. You are so right that you have to love yourself for who you are right. at. THIS. moment.
  • SisterhoodoftheShrinkingPants
    SisterhoodoftheShrinkingPants Posts: 474 Member
    I have a picture on my desk of when I was 28(ish)....I will be 40 next month. I look at that pic and remember thinking I was fat at the time. Funny that I use it as motivation to return to that weight now. It is so sad that we strive for this idea of perfection and even if we reached it, it wouldn't be enough. You are so right that you have to love yourself for who you are right. at. THIS. moment.

    we can and will this time right? I will be damned if I get to my goal weight and it isnt enough AGAIN LOL <3
  • Kifissia
    Kifissia Posts: 136
    I have a picture on my desk of when I was 28(ish)....I will be 40 next month. I look at that pic and remember thinking I was fat at the time. Funny that I use it as motivation to return to that weight now. It is so sad that we strive for this idea of perfection and even if we reached it, it wouldn't be enough. You are so right that you have to love yourself for who you are right. at. THIS. moment.

    I did the same. So happy I'm learning to love myself now.
  • SisterhoodoftheShrinkingPants
    SisterhoodoftheShrinkingPants Posts: 474 Member
    Its sounds so cliche and yet that IS what its about. love. :)
  • seawolf86
    seawolf86 Posts: 55
    I am kind of the opposite, when I was young, I was fat and didn't really "care". I was shy and had a small group of friends, was lucky enough toneverreally be teased and just kind of didn't care about my looks. Finally I discovered boys and lost a bunch of weight... Now that I'm thinner I still see myself as fat even though my fiancé constantly tells me I'm not. I am getting a little better with it now that I have some muscle and am not just "skinny fat" although I hate my extra skin I still have on my tummy and feel it makes me look fat.

    Anyway, thanks for sharing... There are a lot of people who seem to suffer from body dysmorphia.
  • SisterhoodoftheShrinkingPants
    SisterhoodoftheShrinkingPants Posts: 474 Member
    I am kind of the opposite, when I was young, I was fat and didn't really "care". I was shy and had a small group of friends, was lucky enough toneverreally be teased and just kind of didn't care about my looks. Finally I discovered boys and lost a bunch of weight... Now that I'm thinner I still see myself as fat even though my fiancé constantly tells me I'm not. I am getting a little better with it now that I have some muscle and am not just "skinny fat" although I hate my extra skin I still have on my tummy and feel it makes me look fat.

    Anyway, thanks for sharing... There are a lot of people who seem to suffer from body dysmorphia.

    You look great! I will have a lot of sagging skin when Im at my GW. I already have some...dont particularly like it, but its the lesser of two evils and mostly..I need to appreciate myself AS IS. you too ;)
  • IamUndrCnstruction
    IamUndrCnstruction Posts: 691 Member
    I have a picture on my desk of when I was 28(ish)....I will be 40 next month. I look at that pic and remember thinking I was fat at the time. Funny that I use it as motivation to return to that weight now. It is so sad that we strive for this idea of perfection and even if we reached it, it wouldn't be enough. You are so right that you have to love yourself for who you are right. at. THIS. moment.

    we can and will this time right? I will be damned if I get to my goal weight and it isnt enough AGAIN LOL <3

    Damn right. :heart:

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