How to Break from Depression?

*hugs*

These feelings are actually completely normal. There is nothing wrong with you. If you really struggle coming out of this funk, then you should seek some help. But what you going through right now is completely normal giving what you are dealing with. If you need someone to talk to, I'm completely available anytime. I'll PM you my number.

This is me! If something bad happens, I just fall apart, feel like things will NEVER EVER get better and I can NOT see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I just spent the past 5 days crying off and on, personally. All I can say is you have to do one of two things.

1) go to a dr. and get help with a prescription or talking to a therapist, etc about how you feel. or
2) try to figure out how you can pull through on your own.

While I used to have these 1 week to 1 month long crying spells every two months or so, this is the first I have really had in about a year. I am learning to control this on my own and honestly, diet and exercise helps me personally A LOT! (The past two weeks I havent been financially able to buy any food and therefore havent worked out much, and therefore fell back into a depression spell!)

BUT I was on different medicines off and on since I was 14, and after 10 years of that I just realized that no medicine was going to help me, I have to figure out what motivates me to keep going, stay positive, and live a happy life. My children are my number 1 motivation, I hate when they see me cry for days on end, I feel like I am doing so much damage to them.

What's most important to me is to deal with it as soon as I start feeling it. Once I'm down, its so hard to get back up on my own. I saw a therapist once who told me to exercise to relieve my depression. That's great advice and all, but you want me to lace up my tennies and go running around the block when I hardly have the energy to get out of bed? BUT in the beginning when I start to feel myself sinking, I AM able to muster up the energy and self control to go for a run. And exercise does help a lot!

Also, I've discovered that sugar plays a tremendous role in my mood. Avoiding sugar has really helped to keep me even.

Could it be anxiety? Dreading something to come before it actually happens...? Assuming the worst will happen?

Hi Organi_Azure,

I understand exactly what you have described and yes it is a form of depression. My physcian does yearly blood work on me to a full screen to check things like my thyroid levels, insulin, cholesterol..yada yada yada. Most depression can be triggered through a chemical or hormonal imbalance. She has had to adjust my medications over the years to help my body work with me and not against me in the depression dept.

But I must add that sometimes I "feel" that regardless of what my hormones are doing there are just some self-esteem and life long fears that I have had 4ever that can set me into an anxious state of mine...which also ads to my depression.
Things that have been deeply enbedded can't be willed away or ran away from, but here is some hope to help you cope:

1.) Journaling my feelings and events. [I studied Child Development and many times we tell very young children to "use their words" to express what they want or are squealing about....] SO...one day I was having a melt down and I thought "use your words!" When I put things in writing I was able to sort through the blubbering and unload what was really bothering me. A few days later I came back and re read what I had written. With a yellow highlighter I highlighted any words that expressed "fear". Once you can identify and pin point the fears buried deep in your gray matter, then you can begin to work on the core of your depression. Just like you said before long not only can you predict it coming...but you'll also know what triggers it!
2.) Vit D3 5000 IU one daily (helps with mood)
3.) Exercise (outdoors)
4.) Music and meditation (adequate rest)
& lastly...
5.) PUSH (P.ray U.ntil S.omething H.appens)

The part I think I dislike the most of depression is feeling like an outsider looking in. I feel like I loose so much precious time by just going through the motions and not really living. Most people who know me do not know I suffer from this illness ( I keep it on the DL)...and I put on one hell of an act. Then, once I am removed from the common population...I am exhausted. It takes alot of energy to act happy when your hurting inside. Then comes the loss of motivation to move or even leave the house. My Fitness Pal has helped me stay on track and to be accountable to practice healthy habits instead of negative ones.
Long story short...remain active, consult your MD and don't forget to PUSH :happy:

You are not alone! It will all be okay.
Your MFP Buddy,
Robin

Just

Decide.



If you are living one half second in the future or one half second in the past, you are living in illusion and illusion is the Province of Fear.

You are so right BJLeech....my youngest child flew the coop in Feb. so I am 4 months into my empty nest thing as well as other piddly diddly stuff too...I have heard that basically I am grieving (not the loss of my children) but the loss of my self. I don't identify with who I am forced into being. My role changes now and I am having to find out who I am again...I am grieving me. Deep Kaa-ka hugh? For 31 years I have raised 5 daughters and have always been a mother....I am still a mother but no longer have anyone to nurture.
STAT
I NEED A PET :sad:

Thank you so much for your replies. I have just started using my fitness pal and it is helping me to live again. I am a breast cancer survivor of 8 years struggling with survival guilt and my fitness pal is helping me to put myself back together again. I have to say I finally had to go to therapy and it is helping. Thanks for the P.U.S.H. idea I will use it! It's amazing how life can be full of surprises but with the hard times the good can break through with support.