I am so scared...what if I stay like this???

Do not stress yourself out. There is probably no one on this site that did not have doubts when we started out. Scroll through the site and see how much everyone has lost and keep telling yourself we all started with that first step. Remember it is the little things that will make a difference so do not get in a rush. You did not put the weight on overnight and will take a while to take it off. Set little goals for yourself and it will give you a great boost when you reach it. Like a smaller size clothes, walking up stairs easier and getting more energy. Just hang in there and you can do if you want to. Good luck and remember you are not just doing it for yourself but for the people you love and love you.:flowerforyou:

If I were you, I would consider lifting weights. It will burn off fat and tone you up. They will help get rid of some "fat" you have.

I am 4'9 so I know how you feel, I am pretty heavy, but I was 115 at one time, because I had no toning though, I thought my belly was kinda fatty. This time around I am kicking that part of thinking in the rear. I work on toning 3x a week for 20mins.

I did a session last night. Today my muscles were fatigue (like I was holding a dumb bell every time I stretched my arms today) I am starting to feel some soreness now though, so tomorrow I am going to be VERY sore. I'll try to lift weights again tomorrow because that will stretch them out (and yes it will be painful, lol).

It's worth it. I am going to have some decent toning by the time I lose all my weight.

Just an idea for you. Good luck

At my highest I was about 245 lbs and a 63 year old male about 6' 1.5". Lost 20-25 basically without effort or exercise. After dropping to about 218 at 65, and with my wife being diagnosed with diabetes I knew I had to get more aggressive and get in better shape myself. Was fortunate enough that my medicare supplement policy entitled me to a free gym membership. I'm rather conservative in my approach due to a bad back and neck, but found out that although I have trouble walking (and treadmill is out of the question), I am able to use a stationary bike without it messing up my back and have been doing weight resistance at the level that a 12 year old girl might use. Since April 24th I dropped to 202 with the use of the food diary. Burning about 300 calories on the bike 4 or 5 days a week I was making progress. One week of not watching calories I've gotten back to 208 (bother)! My initial goal is to drop below 200 for the first time in 35 years, and the ultimate goal is to reach 185-190 before the summer ends. Although the exercise fat burn works, I wonder why no calorie burn is shown for weight training. I do keep reminding myself that it is a journey more than a goal. I do not drink much but do love a beer or three on occasion. "Scared," if we work at it, it will happen; just maybe not as quickly as we wish. Hang in there! There is very little we can do in cutting calories and increasing exercise that will hurt us. We can make it. Discipline is not necessarily an inborn treat. If we slip a bit we just need to get back on the horse and ride it again. Best of luck (to us all) and let's just adapt, overcome, and persevere!