When life changing events happen...

So I'm gonna get a little personal but I feel like it may be needed for this question..

When I was 17, in 2010, I was diagnosed with poly-cystic ovarian syndrome. To be 17 and to be told I'm going to already have trouble conceiving, and that my insulin levels are a large impact on my constant weight gain (and not being able to lose), really through me for a loop. Probably gained about 90 pounds since that time. I was a typical teenager, did a lot of drinking, got into other activities, did have relationships.

This past December, I actually managed to conceive. Though in January, at 11 weeks, had a miscarriage. With that miscarriage was a handful of complications. So in February, decided it was time to really focus in on my health. It was a slow start but seemed like a promising beginning. I was in a lot of pain with my other health issues but continued on.

Late March, I had one of my two Uncles committed suicide. He was an alcoholic and as sad as it was and how bad of a relationship he had with my family, decided to quit drinking.Cut down my drinking basically to none.felt good. With that happening, a lot of other events followed. I live with my grandparents and help support them, they basically raised me, my mom is a single mother their health is not good either, both are dealing with obesity, diabetes and other health problems, so trying to help them took on more stress and I gained my weight back, plus some. Just trying to get everything back in line, has been difficult. Also we're currently looking into my grandmother, she currently has a biopsy scheduled monday - and if it's positive it could be a whole battle ahead. after all this.

I'm at the point where I want to really succeed for myself, and for them. I'm not a highschool graduate (though have had pretty decent jobs). I'm planning to fix that, then attend college in the fall. I want to get my PSW certificate then get into practical nursing. I want to focus on that and really build a good future for myself. It's just super difficult...

like I've tried so many diets, even invested in a treadmill to have a convenient form of exercise, I follow my birthcontrol / metformin routine for my PCOS, but this stress isn't allowing me to get in that direction. things are better, we even bought a little boxer puppy, but gaining that motivation even though I'm seeing NO results is hurting.

haha so with my random rant/blurb about the story behind my quesitons...

Where do you find your motivation when it comes to dealing with difficult times???
Have you ever made good progress, had something happen, and fell right down?? How did you recover?

Also another one,

Surgical options. If the PCOS levels / different diets are not working for me, when is it a time to start looking into that??

thanks!!! lol xxoxox