8 months of trying...fail...depressed, need help

This is one of the hardest things I have tried to do also. I try think of this as a life time/style change, not just a "diet". I am also an emotional eater and breaking those habits are really hard. Tracking my food helps so I know where I am, but what helps the most is drinking lots of water or other calorie free drinks and the biggest thing for me is when I feel hungry, I have a little talk with myself and it goes something like this - are you really hungry, as in actually need food, or are you just bored, lonely, sad, happy, restless (that's the biggest one for me). I eat for every one of those reasons and more, but when I am actually upfront and honest with myself (I like to fool myself regularly), I realize that mostly I just want to eat because of one of those feelings above. I then try to distract myself (not easy to do) and wait 15 minutes and realize I'm not hungry and I really don't want to eat, I really just want to be doing something other than work. When I'm busy doing things I love to do, I'm not near as hungry and that is why I know I am an emotional eater. I have only lost 2 pounds and have been trying to lose weight for 20 years, I've been successful before, but always gained it back also, so this is and has been a long struggle, but one I am determined to win and win soon. Counseling may help also, me that is, not necessarily you. I need to find out why FOOD became my best friend and I need to learn how to break that friendship up and use food for fuel for my body only. Not easy! Keep at it, we will win the battle of the bulge!

Hang in there. I am right with you - right about the same weight and trying to lose just a few pounds. Maybe focus on toning versus trying to lose. It is definitely harder to lose when you don't have as much to lose.

I do know that I tend to do better if I track my food every day (really makes me think about what I am putting in my mouth) and also if I can get in some exercise each day.

I weigh 5 feet... and just wish to look good...
Like my friends...

Ok, if you're actually 5 feet tall, then 105 is an ok goal for you. I just wanted to make sure that you weren't aiming too low. Though right now, you're still a healthy weight.

Pick one thing you will do differently THIS week, and do it. Just one. Whether it is going to the gym three times, taking a walk, researching some ways to replace unhealthy comfort foods with healthier options...whatever. Do it for a week. Next week, add another small goal.

I did not develop my bad habits in a day, and some of them are really challenging. It doesn't seem so overwhelming when I tackle one thing at a time.

Hey, Nikita! You look so beautiful on your profile pics. Look, maybe you just need to go easy on yourself. I am facing the same problems when it comes to go to the gym. I go monday, then tuesday, then wednesday I feel to tired ... Thursday I eat pizza for dinner and friday I am already giving up. Every week is a fresh star heheheh But, what I've lerned from this experience is that no matter how many calories you are consuming or what people say you should do, You have to feel great about yourself. Even if you eat more than you should, go to the gym, go out for a long walk listening to your favorite music, dance in front of your TV ... Just keep moving ... This anxiety towards food usually leaves me as long as I keep moving... It naturally goes away. Give it a try! And please, look at you ! You are a very beautiful young woman
Hope you feel better soon!
Lots of kisses, from Brazil

Hi Nikita, it is lovely to meet you.

I have trouble with binge eating and emotional eating. What I've found that helps is to avoid keeping sweets in the house except in small amounts, and to eat small meals during the day that have some protein in them. The protein helps to suppress appetite.

Instead of looking at your weight and thinking of how difficult it will be to lose it all, focus on making small changes on one day and not thinking about the end goal. Each day is a new start. Do something now, instead of waiting a day or even an hour.

I agree with Connie! 1100 isn't enough! On days that you exercise you need to fuel your body up so it has the energy for the workouts. 1500-1600 is what my trainer had me on. Try seeing if certain foods affect your body...I know for me the minute I eat pasta, potatoes, or bread...i gain! Some people...dairy affects them. Aim for a balance of carbs, protein, and fats. If you reduce any of those too much, the minute you go back on them...you will gain. Don't give up! You can do this!!!