Finally Fit on a Roller Coaster

This is a victory that's both small and huge at the same time and I wanted to share for anyone else that might be a roller coaster fan too.

I'm actually terrified of heights, but I like trying to face my fears so I love going on roller coasters. I always freak out until we go over that first big drop but by the end I'm screaming out of joy rather than fear. It's empowering getting off the ride knowing I just did something that scares me. But I can't remember the last time I'd been on one. It's been at least a few years because one time I had trouble getting the bar down and I felt so humiliated. Rather than that being a wake up call though I just stopped going. Seems like a good summary of how I was living life: just giving up. But not anymore!

I've lost 64 pounds and when I went to an amusement park recently I was determined to give a roller coaster a shot. It scared me far more than usual, not knowing if I'd fit into one of those tiny chairs (it was an old-fashioned wooden style) or get the bar down if I could manage to squeeze in. But I faced that fear and the heights and I got on and fit just fine and it was the best roller coaster ever and the most amazing feeling. When I got off and went to look at the photo I had the biggest smile on my face and I had to buy it as a reminder of that moment and what I've accomplished. Because I'm not going to give up anymore. I'm going to face my fears and embrace the moment. And I'm sure as heck not missing out on any more roller coasters!