1 year of logging

1 year ago I remember putting on my swimsuit. I sat down and just cried and cried. I was so unhappy with my body. I weighed 220 pounds wore a size 18-20. My youngest was over 1 yr old and I still had not lost all the baby weight. I weighed 255 pounds when I had him in jan 2011. In that year after having him I tried ww, nutrisystem, atkins, southbeach, paleo and yes I lost some weight with those, but it wasn't a lifestyle I could stick with and I would slowly put some of the weight back on when I caved in and ate something I was supposed to avoid. So when I was sitting in my swimsuit crying, my husband found me and asked me what was wrong. I told him how I was feeling and started crying even harder. He put his arm around me and said if I was this unhappy then why wasn't I doing something about it. He was right! What was I waiting for? I had to go about this a new way. The quick fixes were not quick fixes. I thought about how people spend hundreds if not thousands of dollars to lose weight. If I was guaranteed that in 12 months I would lose weight, how much would I pay? I would have spent my last dollar. But I didn't have a lot of money to spend. I needed a free, realistic way to get some weight off in the next year so I didn't have to sit on my bed crying in my swimsuit again. I remembered about myfitnesspal, I already had an account that I never used. So I joined a gym and started counting calories. I knew there were going to be hard times in those next 12 months. But I promised myself I would handle them better. If I over ate I would get right back on track the next day. I didn't want this to be a diet, it had to be a lifestyle. I couldn't go the rest of my life not having cake or brownies. I have a sweet tooth and if I told myself no cake or brownies for the rest of my life I wouldn't make it a week. I am the type of person that if I am told no, I want to even more. So yes I eat cake sometimes and brownies too. My calories are usually around 1900 a day. I stopped going to the gym in Oct. last year. I went faithfully for a long time though. But I wanted to start doing workouts at home. So I purchased turbofire and completed it and I have also just recently completed Chalean extreme. I now wear a size 10-12. That’s 9-10 pants sizes in the last year I have lost. I have a lot more muscle in my body now, thanks to weight training. So I sit here and I think about that sad women sitting on her bed crying in her swimsuit and I am so happy that I am not her anymore. I can remember exactly how I felt that day. I remember how I felt walking in front of people in that swimsuit. I hold my head high now when I put on my swimsuit. I might not be at my goal size yet, but I have done the best I could do in the last year. I have earned the right to be proud of myself. So now I am on to my next 12 months.

These are from last year





This is me currently