Sabotaging Myself

I'm struggling with this right now as well. I know i'm an emotional eater so as soon as I'm having a weak moment, I journal it. I write down exactly what i'm feeling, why i'm feeling that way, why I want to eat etc. By the time i'm done writing & reviewing what I've written I realize that it's not worth it. I visualize myself skinny and know that the pizza i'm craving isn't going to get me there.

everytime I think I want something like that, I drink a full glass of water. It will fill you up and help you forget about the craving. If you are still dwelling on it after that I will try and eat something sweet but healthier. Maybe a piece of wheat bread with a little honey drizzled on it. If you are out, maybe get the bad item and split it with someone else but only take a half of a half.

Well, my friend...I spent years doing this and feeling very sorry for myself. Was not until I hit rock bottom and was 180 lbs, and could not stand to see myself in pictures that I decided to change. This site is a great start with lots of support. Start by making a goal at least day-by-day if not weekly and log, log, log! Food and excercise. It takes an average of 66 days to make something a habit, so you need to stick with it. I have been working out now for over two months and feel bad if I don't work out. Because I work out daily, I don't feel the need to eat crap anymore because I am working to hard to make a difference. I do treat myself, but not like I used to and I don't miss it. You have to do this for you AND NO ONE ELSE!. Be good to yourself, tell yourself you deserve to be happy, to be fit and healthy. Be proud of each day that you accomplish your goal to work out and eat better, don't rely on others to do this. And if you happen to miss a day, don't slide back, just tell yourself its ok and get right back into it the following day. If I can do it so can you...one day at a time and log, log, log! Can't say that enough. Best of luck to you.

I have a bit of a different take on this. You say you were under your calories and had a shake so what? I had carrot cake for dessert last night and on Friday I split a tiramisu with my friend . I also drink wine and beer and eat cheese and crackers. As long as I am under my calories and getting enough healthy nutrients I dont see whats so bad about eating what I want.
My goal is not 100% clean eating (been there done that) My goal now is to continue to lose gradually while still living my life and eating whatever I want , just not as much of it.
I do have "trigger" foods that I only get occasionally , not becasuse they are "bad" but because I will eat the whole block of cheese or the whole jar of olives in one sitting lol. I just make sure I only buy them when I plan on having more calories that day and then I just enjoy them no guilt im not doing anything "bad" just eating some food. Yes its slowed my weight loss sometimes but I dont see that as a failure, this is something I have to keep doing forever if I want to maintain and so I had better be able to live with it without it being a constant battle or struggle and not use it as a tool to beat up on myself.
Just my take on things...
Keep up the good work and be kind to yourself...if your friend did the same thing how would you treat her?...shouldnt you treat yourself as well as you would treat your friend?