Starting Over

handsoftime
handsoftime Posts: 39 Member
in Introduce Yourself
Hey everyone. I'm posting this because I've really been struggling as far as motivation goes, and maybe having some people that are in the same plight as mine might be able to be that person to lean on when I need it. So, here's my story.

I began my weight loss journey in December of 2011 after a really rough breakup. I used exercise as a way of forgetting. I lost 30 lbs "forgetting" her. And I felt great. I was nowhere near slim, or even in relatively decent shape, but I had never looked or felt better about myself. Then the cravings kicked in. I wanted food that I told myself I couldn't have, and that was my undoing. I stopped exercising later that year, and slowly started packing the pounds back on.

About a month and a half ago, I got a new job. One where I was sedentary most of the time. So that accelerated the weight gain. It didn't help that when I was wasn't working, I spend my time on the couch. My diet was terrible and I ate basically anything that was bad for me.

When I woke up this morning, I took a long, hard look at myself in the mirror. I didn't like what I saw. I disliked what I saw een more when I stepped on the scale. 304. That's the biggest I've ever been. I've never seen a three starting my weight before. And it triggered something in me. A lot of things, really. Some of it depression, I thought to myself, "How did I let it get this bad?" But it also lit a fire under me to finally lose the weight I've had since my childhood. This weight that has caused so much bullying from kids when I was younger, to feeling left out when my friends want to go do something physical, and I can't keep up.

So today's the day I resume my journey, and I'd really like to have a friend along the way.

My name's Dustin, I'm 304 lbs. But not for long.

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  • rob32768
    rob32768 Posts: 505
    Good luck man ! You can do it and you owe it to yourself to believe in yourself :-)
  • 26louises
    26louises Posts: 1
    Welcome Dustin, glad to have you here, and congrats on the new job! I'm relatively new here too, so here's to a good journey on this weightless track for us both!
  • Quinn_Baker
    Quinn_Baker Posts: 292 Member
    Lovin' it! Welcome to MFP. Feel free to add me!
  • tinahalliday
    tinahalliday Posts: 19
    WoW...right there with ya...I got motivated big time just by going to the Dr and getting weighed back in Feb of 2011. Was at 255 I think at that point. Scared me when I saw my weight. Decided to exercise and start eating right. Lost about 30 lbs in approx 3 months and felt great. Was exercising lots and eating healthy for the most part. Didn't even crave the bad stuff. Lost my motivation after about 5 months and slowly put all of my weight back on...just can't seem to get my mojo back to get at it again. Makes me sad. I wonder why I do this to myself and if I am actually trying to kill myself by being as unhealthy as I can?! I'm a horrible example for my kiddos nutrition wise and that breaks my heart...but I can't seem to stop myself...needing some motivation to start over again too...thanks for posting about your struggle too...here's hoping we can both pick ourselves up and do it again!
  • handsoftime
    handsoftime Posts: 39 Member
    Thanks a lot. Here's to what will hopefully be the hardest, yet most rewarding journey of our lives!
  • Detixce
    Detixce Posts: 11
    Good luck with everything! You can do it if you set your mind to it! Life is all about what you make of it and you are making it better ;)
  • tinahalliday
    tinahalliday Posts: 19
    AMEN!
  • AJinBirmingham
    AJinBirmingham Posts: 497
    As an inventor, Edison made 1,000 unsuccessful attempts at inventing the light bulb. When a reporter asked, "How did it feel to fail 1,000 times?" Edison replied, ‘I didn’t fail 1,000 times. The light bulb was an invention with 1,000 steps.’ Never Quit!
  • mikeyharky
    mikeyharky Posts: 1
    Hey Dustin, my name is Mike & I go to the gym at 10 am Mon/Wed/Fri but use a trainer to get me motivated to go to the gym - since I'm paying for it. It's the Tues/Thurs/Sat when I have to do cardio that sucks. That's when I need someone there to push me. Maybe I'll run into you at the gym.
  • vicelike
    vicelike Posts: 22
    Buy "EAT TO LIVE" by Joel Fuhrman.

    Dr. Fuhrman has some interesting ideas on food craving as sign of an addiction. Break the habit and in a week... a tough week....you can be addiction free. After that, it sounds pretty straight forward. Just eat fruits and vegetables for 90% of your calories... as much as you want and watch the weight pour off you.
  • handsoftime
    handsoftime Posts: 39 Member
    I'll look into it. I also watched a couple documentaries about eating healthy. "Hungry for Change" and "Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead" are both really great documentaries to watch. But thank you for the advice!

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