One of those days ..

43932452
43932452 Posts: 7,246 Member
in Motivation and Support
As it turns out today my mother had a few hurtful
things to say to me, which were really meant for
herself because I've always been the place she felt
easiest to direct it. This is painful because I'm trying
so hard not to dump it back on myself with food,
as in emotional eating. As raw as this is now I realize
where my bad habits started and why I was an emotional
eatter. In stead of being confrontational, I was self sabotaging
with food. She has been this way with me as far back as
I can remember.I sit here crying like a child, it is pathetic
that woman can still hurt me and I'm a grown woman!
Anyway I'm doing my best not to eat out of plan but
getting my fitness started .. I feel like I'm caked in cement.
I'll do my best. Anyone else go thru this kind of snafu?

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  • 43932452
    43932452 Posts: 7,246 Member
    Never mind .. such a shame I can't delete or even edit it.
  • 1802go
    1802go Posts: 77 Member
    NEW first day
    Yes.. my mom all the time. She can say just a little thing, just the right way and bang the pain in my heart ! I don’t show it until later.. per pound. Its like its not enough she shot ya, but now I will throw food at myself and kill me too.
  • sa11yjane
    sa11yjane Posts: 491 Member
    My heart goes out to you. I am so sorry that your mum dumps on you in this way, have you ever confronted her over this? I self-medicate with food so totally understand how you deal with the hurt, however I am sure that we are both aware that we don't have to deal with pain in this way.

    I was once told to imagine that someone's hurtful words could be mentally put in a box and given back to them with words such as 'I don't want this crap thankyou, you can have it back' (all done in our head, not literally!). We can't choose what people say or do to us but we can choose how we react.....I hope and pray that you can find a more positive way to deal with the hurt. My thoughts are with you xxx
  • 43932452
    43932452 Posts: 7,246 Member
    Thank U 1802go .. welcome to the community. :)

    sa11yjane, how beautifully handled. I'll have to try
    that. Emotional eating was diverted. I'm rock solid
    in my vow to not be that way. I'm not a garbage pit.
    lol I'm finally strong enough to not let food be an
    unhealthy outlet. Thank you both for listening. :)
  • sa11yjane
    sa11yjane Posts: 491 Member
    Bless you. Do keep in touch and let us know how things go x

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